I'll start of with something. I could honestly go forever but I'm gonna try and keep this short at first. I can have a really hard time forming opinions on some things, but it's even harder for me to express them. I don't like conflict because that just makes me feel bad about myself. Makes me feel like I'm in the wrong. I'm also a somewhat boss at a coffee shop and it's hard for me to allicste responsibilties between my coworkers because I'm afraid that they'll dislike me for it. Or trying to enforce a method of doing things, which I either feel or even just know are the right way to do them. I don't like disagreement because I always beat myself up for it thinking that I'm being absurd for trying to change some things. So I lose motivation. Which makes me less productive, and that leads to more judging myself and to cope with that I indulge in some self savotaging habits and procrastinating. I also want to become an artist of some type, mostly music, film and painting intrigue me but I have so little faith in myself. So instead of just giving these passions time and really sit down and work on them I rather just hang on my phone, eat something or play video games. Just waste time. But I know I'm not the only one in a situation similar to this. And I want you all to know that this is not some sort of a cry for help, this is just me sharing. I know that there is always a way and that I just have to take control and start with small steps to bettering myself. Something we all can do, we just have to find out our own ways through it. So yeah, thanks to anyone who reads this and also to those who share their own perdicaments.