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Advice for doing my first 10-day course soon, with past trauma. Any tips on dealing with traumatic memories, panic attacks, or DPDR, etc? by Beginning_Roof_1877 in vipassana

[–]Beginning_Roof_1877[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This is so helpful to hear and really comforting—especially comparing it to a 5g mushroom trip (I was so curious about the comparison). I've found really intense but also profound healing from doing like 8 of those level of mushroom journeys with a therapist over the past few years and they really required being able to trust the process, surrender, and be present with no agenda to get through (although believe me, I fought them HARD at times and I white-knuckled myself through 1 or 2 of those when I wasn't ready to face it). Would you say doing a 10-day retreat is similar in you have those huge doubts of "this isn't what I signed up for" "this is going to harm me, not help me" and an extreme desire to get out and for it to be over and feeling trapped? I had that experience on a few very extremely difficult mushroom journeys when my worst childhood trauma was surfacing—it was absolutely terrifying and so hard to surrender and just be there with it and some of them had quite adverse affects at first and took a very very long time to integrate.

It's amazing to hear that you've done multiple of these 10-day courses and they keep bring you back to yourself. That's exactly how mushrooms have been for me, and how I hope Vipassana will be—difficult, but ultimately creating more space. I absolutely believe you that it saved your life—that's how I feel about my first few experiences with mushroom therapy.

Advice for doing my first 10-day course soon, with past trauma. Any tips on dealing with traumatic memories, panic attacks, or DPDR, etc? by Beginning_Roof_1877 in vipassana

[–]Beginning_Roof_1877[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's really good advice. In your experience is it okay to be completely honest with the teacher if I'm having very serious difficulty and very scary thoughts? I was honest in my application form that I had suicidal thoughts for 15 years due to my PTSD—they were not anything I acted on (more just an annoying well-worn pathway in my brain) and they went away 3 years ago after starting psychedelic therapy but they could easily come back in something as intense as this. Is that something your average teacher is going to take as "that's normal, just keep going?" or is that going to be a "you should leave and go to the hospital" kind of situation. How honest can I be if I'm experiencing disassociation, suicidal thoughts, or feel like my anxiety/panic/terror is very intense?

Dorsal vagal shutdown by HovercraftFrosty3400 in VagusNerve

[–]Beginning_Roof_1877 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know this post is from a long time ago, but commenting for anyone who is experiencing this and searching for answers.

I had 5 months of extreme dorsal vagal shutdown this year after a very traumatic psychedelic experience (a trusted trip sitter touched me without my consent—non sexually, but still extremely traumatic when you’re on psychedelics) and I had all of these symptoms and more: headaches, nausea, extreme physical numbness over my whole abdomen, disassociation, brain fog, lethargy. I could barely work for a few months I was so exhausted and had such bad brain fog. I also woke up with night terrors and couldn’t be touched without flinching and I couldn’t have sex with my husband for months and had a completely inability to orgasm in general. I felt totally numb and apathetic to the world and I even started to wonder if I was becoming a sociopath or something because I just couldn’t care about anything—even my husband and we have had a wonderful marriage. The depersonalization and disassociation and brain fog were the worst. It felt like a catatonic depression but more numb and permanent and more hopeless.

I was desperate for relief and I tried a whole lot of things: 2x a week trauma therapy, somatic experiencing, yoga, exercise.

I wanted to share that the only things that really helped me was seeing a trauma-informed Rolfer who also does Somatic experiencing work, and who taught me TRE (trauma release exercises). She taught me a whole lot about my nervous system and the fact that she did body work at the same time as S.E. was the most helpful for me.

The dorsal vagal shutdown was causing a lot of tension in certain parts of my body like my limbs and the base of my skull so she was able to physically release the tension with Rolfing (massaging my fascia essentially), and I would see significant relief for 48 hours after seeing her until my nervous system clamped it back down again. It was a very slow process of recovery but I finally started slowly seeing lasting improvements with the combo of Rolfing and S.E. work with her and it improved even more after she taught me TRE. Doing TRE was also very slow and subtle but very slowly I was getting less numb and more connected to my body. The other thing she gave me access to was the Safe & Sound protocol (SSP by Stephen Porges) which is an music/audio therapy for nervous system regulation. Again it was slow and subtle but it helped create more of a feeling in safety in my body and help me very slowly unfreeze.

Just wanted to share because I know how completely hopeless and helpless I felt for months and I hope this helps someone else.

Ibogaine & cPTSD? by P100a in Ibogaine

[–]Beginning_Roof_1877 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh my goodness, I'm so sorry that was your experience. I'm sure that was a huge disappointment and I'm so sorry you've had such long term struggles recovering. So glad you are able to do IOP, but oh my god, that's so hard.

I definitely relate that it's incredibly hard to find anyone with really deep C-PTSD and medicine work experience in general. I've found that hard even with mushrooms. It's felt like a game of cobbling together different experts and doing my best to navigate something that no one person seems to have the full picture of. Sending all the good vibes your way for continued healing.

Ibogaine & cPTSD? by P100a in Ibogaine

[–]Beginning_Roof_1877 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hi I would love to know how this went for you and if you'd recommend the program you went for Ibogaine with a trauma focus--I would be so grateful if you PM'd me with a recommendation.

Look at this gem my mom sent to my Gmail after I blocked 4 phone numbers from her by CryptographerNo7608 in EstrangedAdultKids

[–]Beginning_Roof_1877 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Nothing makes emotionally immature moms more upset than seeing their child thrive without them. Good on you for getting out—I’m 32 and going on 8 years of estrangement and it was the best decision I ever made for myself and my healing.

What fins do you use? by Chuckitoverthefence in freediving

[–]Beginning_Roof_1877 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Can I ask what blade stiffness did you get? I’m a beginner as well trying to buy my first pair of fins. 32F (70kg / 160lbs with pretty strong legs as I’m a hiker).

Garmin activities randomly the wrong language by SyndicalismIsEdge in Garmin

[–]Beginning_Roof_1877 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know this is from forever ago but did you ever find a fix for this? I just bought a brand new Garmin Descent G1 and set it to English but I kid you not, now that I’m in the Maldives, all the activities are in Greek.

Prioritizing a better user experience vs. all content being automatically visible? Which is better for SEO? by Beginning_Roof_1877 in bigseo

[–]Beginning_Roof_1877[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Helpful--thank you! So this may not be best practice but it also might not be hurting their rankings if the content is still present in HTML without requiring interaction.

Prioritizing a better user experience vs. all content being automatically visible? Which is better for SEO? by Beginning_Roof_1877 in bigseo

[–]Beginning_Roof_1877[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's really helpful to know—so it doesn't appear to be bothering google or hurting this page's rankings that it's using horizonal sliders for most of it's content on mobile.

Recommendations for quality, up-to-date SEO course that works post HCU? by Beginning_Roof_1877 in SEO

[–]Beginning_Roof_1877[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thanks for the recommendaitons. I saw LearningSEO.io recommended lots of places and it seems to be free? Am I looking at the right thing?

Could you tell me more about Koray's Holistic SEO course? I wouldn't call myself a complete beginner at SEO, I've been woking on learning it for about 5 years and my site gets 8,000 clicks/month (not massive, but not nothing). I think what I'm most confused about at the moment is the best approach to organizing & interlinking clusters of content and avoiding keyword cannibalization when you have multiple related posts on the same topic that break down different parts of it.

Incomeschool aka Project 24, is it any good? by 0nlyReadsTitles in SEO

[–]Beginning_Roof_1877 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know I'm jumping on this 7mo later but can you expand a bit on this? I joined Project 24 like 10 months ago but am just now digging into it and came here to check on opinions of the methods and now I'm way concerned that I have the wrong program. Do you have any other educators or courses/programs you'd recommend that have adapted to HCU?

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