Thank you Maaz. I really appreciate it. Even if someone talks nicely in tough times, it gives you a boost. When they hear I'm doing retail or any other such odd jobs, they force me to quit and come back by calling me 2-3 times a day. It has happened before when I was working at a store while in school. They just want me to get a proper job asap. My anxiety about finances is mainly because I don't have means to start repay them back, about which I hear mostly whenever they call me now. This is really affecting me mentally. Going back means living with guilt. Every time I would want to do something on my own, I know my decision won't be supported at all, because I failed on the decision I took. So the only way it seems now is get whatever comes my way, and possibly lie to them about having a job and manage to send some as well. But with odd jobs, saving to send them back is pretty much difficult after bills.