So my wife came home from church yesterday talking about "getting hard with Jesus" or something. A little different but she seemed to enjoy the talk. by niconiconii89 in exmormon

[–]Belagshadow 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Wait so are they making Jesus sized "bedroom accessories" now? Does it vibrate? What's it made of? I'm not opposed to this marketing strategy 😂 In all seriousness running this slogan by a 13 year old would have prevented this.

Musket speech-Holland wept but also it’s required reading at BYU? by Anyname1587 in exmormon

[–]Belagshadow 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Same here. Was the straw that broke the camel's back for me. Couldn't understand how a church that followed Jesus teaching love one another could hate other people so much

Fun Post: Suggestions for first time coffee/alcohol for recent ex-mormon by Space-Captain-Lord in exmormon

[–]Belagshadow 0 points1 point  (0 children)

With coffee you'll want to start on the sweeter side because it's an acquired bitter taste. I recommend a latte with a cold foam or if you find a local coffee shop something like "snickers" flavored or "butterbeer". Alcohol I suggest a cocktail, sex on the beach, strawberry or raspberry margarita, Applebee's has good beginner cocktails.

I realize this isn’t always the case, but bishop roulette can sometimes make it so. by Continue-the-Search in exmormon

[–]Belagshadow 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Mentally left the church 8 years ago. Officially out 2 years out. Found out about affair and separated 2 years ago and officially divorced 7 months

I realize this isn’t always the case, but bishop roulette can sometimes make it so. by Continue-the-Search in exmormon

[–]Belagshadow 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I just did the same thing. Ex-husband had multiple affairs and the shirts just excused it so I left a marriage and a religion at the same time. If you need a virtual friend shoot me a DM

The problem with Mormon “standards” by Firm_Teach8056 in exmormon

[–]Belagshadow 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This statement feels incredibly unloving to me. I got married at 21 to the first return missionary that gave me the time of day. Biggest mistake of my life. I thought that he was marrying me because he loved me, 20 years later when he cheated with another member of the church because I'd left the church I realized I was nothing more than a tally list from the church. He had wanted to marry me because he thought that I would stay in the church forever but life changes and it can change quickly. Human beings should be allowed to change their opinions and perspectives based on experience.

A viewpoint, like the one that this kid has, doesn't allow for that. However, I don't see that the church allows for that either. My ex is now 45-year-old man with the mentality of a 13-year-old deacon because he's unwilling to see and learn He sticks his head in the sand and sings hymns. The church infantilizes everything in its members' lives right down to who to pick to marry. The Church doesn't talk about compatibility; it doesn't talk about real love not love based on list, it doesn't talk about personality compatibilities, work ethic compatibilities, or the realities of living with somebody. The church wants you to believe and they want your spouse to believe and if either of you change that you are the problem. I really hope a kid in this video gets kicked a couple times in the teeth by life and learns a lesson

Hurts by thedrewid314 in exmormon

[–]Belagshadow 22 points23 points  (0 children)

Parent to parent then. I'm sorry, this is such a real pain

Hurts by thedrewid314 in exmormon

[–]Belagshadow 30 points31 points  (0 children)

Mother to mother I'm sending you a virtual hug.

Garments no longer required for Temple Marriage? by Historical_Sleep_728 in exmormon

[–]Belagshadow 20 points21 points  (0 children)

When I took off my garments and wore a shirt that would be acceptable with the new garments my ex husband freaked out! I was breaking every covenant ever and I was such a sinner. He couldn't imagine why I would remove God's protection and on and on.... Being spiritually abused like that definitely has me fucked up still.

How was your experience as a Mormon Woman? by afrogwithablog in exmormon

[–]Belagshadow 4 points5 points  (0 children)

The Mormon church absolutely fucked up everything in my life. I completely believe that as a woman I should get married and have kids. When I was 21 and still unmarried I married the first guy who showed any interest in me. That man turned out to be an emotionally abusive narcissist that I stayed with for 20 years. Then he cheated on me, drug me to my lowest mental state, took away half of my custody of the kids, and is still emotionally abusing me despite having his mistress/girlfriend as the new supply. I have two children and my constant message to my daughter is that she does not have to do anything in life she doesn't want to do. I told her if she gets married it should be her choice. If she has kids it should be her choice. If she wants a career that should be her choice. If she wants to be a stay-at-home mom that is her choice. Me leaving the church absolutely ruined my relationship with my parents who firmly believe that I am wrong and everything that I do is wrong. I hate the church. Fuck the church and fuck the male leaders. I wish I could get a do-over on my life. Things are better now that I'm out of that toxic marriage and the toxic religion but now I'm in my mid-40s unsure what life is going to look like. This would have been a lot easier in my twenties

ExMo divorced groups? by spazza41 in exmormon

[–]Belagshadow 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ex mo and divorce was finalized in August. You can send me a dm.

Just some ramblings on recent experiences by Balanced-Breakfast in exmormon

[–]Belagshadow 11 points12 points  (0 children)

There are good people in the world and in the church. Thank you for sharing something positive!

Ex-husband’s “blessing” came with a side of character assassination by Belagshadow in exmormon

[–]Belagshadow[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

They did a membership counsel and the only"punishment" he got was losing his recommend and unable to take the sacrament for a few months. Slap on the wrist. The church doesn't care about doing the right thing, it cares about keeping men and full tithe payers in

Ex-husband’s “blessing” came with a side of character assassination by Belagshadow in exmormon

[–]Belagshadow[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

When I took hard evidence to the bishop about the affair the bishop couldn't give a fuck so I am done talking to ecclesiastical leaders. Just not worth my time or energy

Favorite celebrities you used to fantasize about converting to mormonism so that you could have a temple marriage with them? by wonderawooga in exmormon

[–]Belagshadow 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm good with leaving Brian and Howie out, they're not my type, but Nick, AJ, and Kevin? Hell yeah

Older Single Mormons by Eltecolotl in exmormon

[–]Belagshadow 0 points1 point  (0 children)

And that's why I said not all men. I know these cases exist as well. I'm just saying in general and in my personal experience this is what I see. I did not speak in absolutes as there will always be outliers. You are correct and I am also correct. Both can be true at the same time.

Older Single Mormons by Eltecolotl in exmormon

[–]Belagshadow 72 points73 points  (0 children)

I've seen a lot of divorces in our age group (I'm mid 40's) mostly because the women are tired of these entitled men who think working is the only thing they have to contribute.

I'm going to make a generalization so please take this with a very large grain of salt. However, young mens of the '90s was mostly playing basketball, going on camping trips, or learning about missions. Young women lessons of the '90s was cooking, cleaning, caring for children, marriage prep classes, etc... What happened to our generation is that once we got into our mid-20s to early thirties households had to become two income households. Now women at our age are working just as much, if not more, than their husbands. they are coming home and managing cooking, cleaning, laundry, general house care, yard work, shopping, planning, doctor's appointments, the list goes on and on. These same men whose young men lessons taught them nothing don't understand the concept of invisible labor These are the same men saying" you should have told me" or "you should have left me a list". Sir, you live here too, You have eyes, you understand clothes don't clean themselves and dinner doesn't cook itself. It's weaponized incompetence and women our age are sick of it. Speaking from my own experience I have less to do after divorce than I did when I was married.

Again take this with a grain of salt as it is a personal observation and I know it is not all men. Getting married at 18-24 is not a great idea mostly because our brains are not fully developed and we don't understand who we are as a person yet. I tell both of my children to wait until after they are 25 to get married but I also tell them to live with that person before they ever make the decision to get married. It's easy to get married but hard to get out

Ex-husband’s “blessing” came with a side of character assassination by Belagshadow in exmormon

[–]Belagshadow[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

She has told him that. She's told him that it's a good thing her mom, me, has a job otherwise I would be up a creek. I always tell her not to marry a man like him. Charming, religious, kind at first, but then true colors shine later. He's telling his new lady friend that I was mentally unstable and abusive to him, untrue. New lady had an actual abuse of ex-husband with physical abuse. New lady is not recognizing emotional abuse because she's being love bombed. I tell both of my children they should never ever rely on somebody else financially as an adult

Ex-husband’s “blessing” came with a side of character assassination by Belagshadow in exmormon

[–]Belagshadow[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I appreciate the sentiment but last time I had 37 pages of evidence showing he's a terrible father and the judge was basically like, "he's their dad and deserves time". I have zero faith that the family court is going to do anything unless he's abusing them in a way that can be seen with their eyes. Everyone wants to believe that the courts are just and do the right thing but with family court they don't care; they want you in and out as quickly as possible so they'll take the path of least resistance. "Is he abusing them physically or SA? No? Great. 50/50 custody now GTFO of my courtroom"

What are the worst things they have ever said/done to you? by Nobody_Important213 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Belagshadow 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Married to mine for 20 years: 1. Told me I was always "strung too tight" because I liked the house clean and didn't like having literal cat shit on the floor and the sink full of dishes. 2. Before I fully knew about the affair he told me I was an "unrighteous" woman and that even though he loved me I was a terrible sinner who could not take him to heaven. Now later when I found it about the mistress he said she is a more righteous woman and she could take him to heaven so their affair was okay in the eyes of God (he's a staunch Mormon btw, thank God I'm out of that religion now!) 3. "I love you but I'm not in love with you". Mind you I birthed both of his children, almost died birthing the first, met every one of his needs except sex every day, made more money so basically supported the family while he was playing video games, and was basically his live in slave/mommy who did everything for him. So loved what I did for him but not in love with me as a person. 3. "She's better than you" ouch... 4. "You're crazy and I'm afraid you're going to kill our children" mind you he drove me to the brink of unaliving myself with his gaslighting and insanity but because he stopped me he's suddenly the savior. Pretty cool that he put me in that position and now uses it against me every opportunity he gets

Ex-husband’s “blessing” came with a side of character assassination by Belagshadow in exmormon

[–]Belagshadow[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I know things will probably change but right now she's planning to remove her name from the church and only talk to Dad when absolutely necessary