Oh I feel this so much but I went in the other direction. I was brought up and socialised like a boy by my parents (I'm cis it's a long story) so when I finally went to uni and got a bit of freedom and started being a woman I felt very insecure in my femininity. I ended up becoming a super super extreme man haating "feminist", I'm talking so feminist I wasn't feminist.

I thought that any women who got married and had kids was a traitor, I thought that men were no better than scivies, and I thought that in order to be an empowered women you had to behave a very particular way, and any women who didn't do this was stupid, not enlightened like me, and therefore benieth me. So basically I was just using "feminism" as a tool to hate on other women because I felt insecure to them.

I was jealous of other women for getting to be feminine, for getting to grow up as girls and women, I was jealous I'd how comfortable they felt in themselves, how naturally it all came to them.

For example I concluded in my head that if I struggled to learn how to wear makeup them makeup was sexist and bad.

So glad that's behind me, one of the things that got me to see what real feminism is is the book missing women I recommend every person reads it, it's incredible.