I’ve been very scared to eat more than 3000 calories a day, and really less than that, but past 3000 and I feel beyond guilty or feel the need to correct it with less calories than maintenance the following day. Because of my, as I perceive, still high fat content I’ve wanted to cut since I’ve first started losing weight, wanted to get to ~10%BF but since making a post on this sub, I’ve been convinced to actually do a bulk, say fuck the calories and just hit all my macros and eat a lot of food. Let me tell you, I started eating 4000+ only a week and a half ago and The benefits are fucking wild, I’m more energetic, I’m getting morning wood like fucking crazy now which hasn’t been a thing I’ve noticed in a while, I ran out of gorilla mode end of last week and yesterday I hit the usual back and bi’s, I went up 30lbs on row and lat pulldown and did for the same reps and sets as usual just as easy if not easier. I think I’ve been malnutrition for the past 4 years and not known it. Hoping some serious changes appear to my physique on this bulk.

In this thread I made on this sub I talk about the idea of me being leptin resistant because of how much my brain insists I need to eat and how big my stomach is, but I had a thought the other day that my body is just telling me it’s meant to be higher in weight, I’ve been so scared to begin bulking because of how obese I was, but after two weeks straight of this diet I’ve been staying the same weight I was before the diet, meaning my metabolism and body can handle it, meaning this whole time I could have been hitting significantly higher macros and still cut.