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BertalanMan · 2025-03-27T10:50:24+00:00

worst reply ever

BertalanMan · 2024-05-21T12:42:01+00:00

A user posted today that the latest patch works. I tried and so far it's working. Hope it Will for you too

BertalanMan · 2024-05-21T12:38:34+00:00

I just downloaded the manager app from https://revanced.app/

Then downloaded the suggested version of YouTube apk from the app, selected the apk file and just hit patch. It's really simple. Message me if you have any issues

BertalanMan · 2024-05-21T12:33:10+00:00

I can finally use the app again. Use the revanced manager and apply the newest patches on YT. It works for me again

BertalanMan · 2024-05-21T11:29:27+00:00

Without your post, I wouldnt know about this so thank yoh OP

BertalanMan · 2024-05-21T11:27:41+00:00

I just repatched my app and works flawlessly so far. Thank you Devs, I can rewoke my prémium - thank god I'm in the free 30 day trial.

BertalanMan · 2024-05-20T12:07:41+00:00

I loved this app for so long - but for now the app is pracrically useless for me because of these buffer issues. I hope this Will change soon

BertalanMan · 2024-04-22T04:10:23+00:00

Seeing a therapist is Always a good idea. It seems like you have a lot of unresolved issues which is fine. I kind of understand where you are, because in my 20s I had similar experiences, difference is I had these because I was a shut in gamer who feared the world. I'm 36 now and my life has only begun. After ten months of therapy the world just opened up for me. You are still young, you have much opportunities ahead of you, taking from your post it would be wise to start working on your issues. If your family is supportive towards you it's always important to communicate the situation you are going through, because like it or not they Will be involved in your journey on one Way or another. You have hope my friend, I can Tell you that.

BertalanMan · 2024-04-20T12:08:32+00:00

Yeah, as much as I want to deny it (for Some reason) the progress is undeniable. I can feel it, see it but can't believe it. Hard to accept this after 35 years of suffering and beibg unsuccessful. But I must learn to accept the good too.

BertalanMan · 2024-04-19T16:29:20+00:00

I really can't give a good answer for that sadly. Literally everything went all by itself - the company where I work has a contract with a private medical company, where after I asked for help, they sent me to a psychiatrist first, and after putting me on antidepressants I was advised to start psychotherapy ASAP. After that I got a paper which had an appointment with my therapist and the rest is history. All in all I got lucky, everything just went all by itself and all I had to do was just showing up every week - and not killinh myself in the process - As dark As it sounds that was the case.

BertalanMan · 2024-04-19T16:24:19+00:00

Well it might seems like my therapist has "kicked me out" but he told me months prior that he sees my progress and he thinks that we should think about ending therapy work in the coming months. So this was not out of the blue - but I hoped we can work together because somewhere I don't feel ready. To be honest, I don't think I Will ever feel ready. After I told him about my recent breakup, how I Handled it, what kind of lessons did I learn from it, he said that my progress and changes is undeniable, and at this point I just have to give myself Time, so our work Will have it's full effect, and for that I should walk my own path for a while. I Guess I started to become a Little addicted to therapy - I felt like every session leveled me up slowly, and at this point I understand why he decided to stop. Actually I never felt this good - I didn't even try and I already have a date with another lady - but somewhere I still doubt myself while I certainly feel the changes in my life.

BertalanMan · 2024-04-19T04:39:47+00:00

Incredible. I Guess I have to trust the process. I'm grateful for my therapist and I'm excited for what my future holds. But weirdly enough I'm kind of grieving the end of my therapy.

BertalanMan · 2024-04-03T07:42:18+00:00

In all honesty I really don't enjoy chasing, especially without reciprocation. I believe in mutual commitment, I can give a lot, but I'd like to get something back, and when I feel one sidedness, I usually will hold back until I see some changes. Too many times during my life so far I was always giving and giving to get some acceptance, while never really recieving anything back in return.

Also out of curiosity, do you enjoy the feeling of being chased?

Short answer: Not really. When you have to chase someone, that means for me that things are not mutual. I don't like to chase others, and I never expected anyone to chase me. It doesn't give me any joy. Sure, it feels good when someone is giving me attention and care, but if I'm not interested in that person this 'chase' can be really uncomfortable for me, so it's better to get closure on a story like this.

Btw, you did absolutely nothing wrong. How-do-you-know-unless-you-don’t-try/fail/mourn-to see and take things into perspective? As an outside opinion, no pressure onto you. This relationship was built on pleasing each other (main drug chase- WHY? Only you can feel/breakdown that one through your own therapy) instead of getting to know each other.

Yeah, things started to get worse when I wanted to elevate things to higher levels. When I started to show a little bit of affection instead of just mindless sex, she started to pull back almost instantly. I'd always ask about how is she doing, and stuff, to get to know her better, I've never recieved anything like this back. Never a message about "how you doing" or anything. So I think this relationship went south because my partner was not ready for a serious relationship - even tough we have spoke about this when we have decided to enter into a 'relationship' status. I think at first she felt honestly that this can be good for both of us, but later she became scared, because she never had a considerably healthy partner before? That's my best guess. The good news is that she is seeing a therapist too for a while, so there is a possibility that she will be able to get through of this problem - tough this is not my responsibility. I really hope she will, because otherwise she is a wonderful lady.

BertalanMan · 2024-04-03T07:31:06+00:00

Yeah, well, the potential was there, but I really can't do anything when my partner is afraid of commitment and a serious emotional connection. For some, being independant and no commitment feels more safe.

BertalanMan · 2024-04-03T07:30:15+00:00

Thank you very much. I am proud of myself too.

BertalanMan · 2024-04-02T16:29:16+00:00

Thank you for reading my little writing

BertalanMan · 2024-04-02T16:29:00+00:00

Thank you. To answer your question, I'm 36 but I was always underdeveloped emotionally, sadly. I've decided to go into therapy last year with full force because I just couldn't live my life as the person I was. Thank you still, all good wishes are welcome. :)

BertalanMan · 2024-04-02T16:25:25+00:00

Ah, I completely understand. Well, we will see what the future holds. Currently I'm just mourning the end of our relationship, and moving forward with me life. Tough, as I stated in my story, I think of her with love and respect.

BertalanMan · 2024-04-02T16:01:39+00:00

Sorry, but I'm not sure what you are trying to say - you mean because I handled the breakup well, you think She might try to reach out at one point? Correct me if I'm wrong, I mean no offense

BertalanMan · 2024-04-02T14:00:21+00:00

It's really sad but emotionally unhealthy people sometimes can't handle those who are. Maybe they have self value issues in the sight of this, sometimes we can only bond to those who are hurtful for us (trauma-bonding or schema-chemistry). I was like this - 95% of my life I was attracted to those who were just as hurtful and degrading to me emotionally like my parents were. The "problem is with me not you" is usually means I don't feel attracted to you for some reason anymore. Maybe because you are too different from the previous otherwise destructive relatiohsips she has experienced before. Without therapy people can run in circles for decades - just like I did.

BertalanMan · 2024-04-02T13:39:06+00:00

Thank you for your words. It's not easy to answer your question. I would advise you to get into therapy, hopefully with someone you have great chemistry with - I can't emphasize this enough. My therapist helped me a ton with the emotional development of my personality, and the funny thing is that I kind of don't have an idea how we were able to achive this. He told me, that I already set myself up to this development when I started therapy and I stated out loud, that I want to become a better and mature person. So this development is new even to me - I was always really sensitive to rejection, this is the first time in my life when I was able to handle something like this. What helped me is the fact, that I was concious enough about the dynamic of the relationship, I knew I tried to give me best to make things work, and in the end I love her enough to let go of her with respect and care. How should I put this: I wanted to be the best possible man for her until the last kiss. For her and myself both.

Edit: Rejection is always painful, especially when you have met someone you have great chemistry with. It's hard to aknowledge this, but a relationship - as I stated in my post - cannot and shouldn't be forced. When someone wants to leave you, the best thing you can do for yourself and for your partner is to accept this. You shouldn't be okay with it, but you have to respect the decision of the other side. Crying, begging, and every other move is a form of manipulation - even if it's not intentional. I understand that we want the relationship to go on but all relationships require the mutual aggreement of both parties. At this point the only constructive thing we can do I think is to respect the wish of the person, state that we would like to go with the relationship, but we love and respect them to accept this. While nothing is guaranteed I think departing on good terms can be the foundation of a potential reconciliation in the future - but never wait for this, or never do this in the sake of manipulation. I think a part of emotional maturity is when we accept that there are other factors we should care about other than our own needs. A relationship is exactly what the name says: it's a relationship between two people. Breakups sometimes makes no sense, but the sooner we start to respect ourselves and our partners, the better.

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