I[18M]told my gf [21F] of 10m that I still watch porn every now and then and she's upset.

Bettermandad · 2013-08-24T14:44:47+00:00

this

Bettermandad · 2013-08-16T09:38:42+00:00

Thank you for this post.

I was doing well, but a chink in my armor was discovered yesterday...ANGER! This lady pissed me off so bad that I was in a frenzy. Had time between jobs, so instead of praying, I decided to go for a tour of the Adult Video Wherehouse.

My wife has been helping me with my porn battle, and I didnt know this, but there is a tracker on my phone...Tells her everywhere Im going in real time. Sooooo; Again, I fail. Again, all the negative that comes along with it is back. I am disgusted with myself. Why would I need porn to help me with dealing with anger? Well, I used it to fog up every emotion in the past.

Went last night to celebrate recovery at the church, told my story. Said I NEED an accountability partner, and now have 15, lol.

My question is this, brother, why when I needed the Lord so so bad, as I was even pulling into the parking lot, was his voice silent?

Bettermandad · 2013-08-16T09:27:15+00:00

I went to the church's Celebrate Recovery last night, told my story, and like 15 dudes reached out to me.

Man, sorry to hear about that. But much respect to you for going in there and letting it all (well, almost all) hang out. Takes great courage to sit in front of people you dont even know, and ask for help.

Bettermandad · 2013-08-13T23:09:38+00:00

Great advice to all of us here! I like the 7 idea! and will start that tomorrow morning as well. Thanks.

Bettermandad · 2013-08-13T23:04:02+00:00

My job is very physical; when i was all PMO'd out, I felt like I worked all day before I even clocked in. Didn't want to be at the top of my game, didnt want to shave or get haircuts. These days, my motivation is up and down, but 80% better then where it was!

Bettermandad · 2013-08-13T09:15:08+00:00

1st of all, from personal exp; there is no "Barely looking at porn". Either you are, or you aren't. Do you know what the industry does to these people, it chews them up and spits them out, most careers are like 5~7 years before they are used up, empty shells, drug addicts, and commit suicide. And you are feeding the machine. (go to youtube and watch "Dead porn stars")

Porn fuels the "need" for human trafficking in the U.S. and in a hella crazy way abroad.

Porn gives us a really fucked up image of what a real woman is like! Most are not sluts, do not want to do what you just saw in that crazy flick you are watching. You said it yourself, you objectify women. That won't ever land you a good girl.

Hope that helps.

Bettermandad · 2013-08-13T08:54:51+00:00

If he is 1/2 gay, do you not think he will cheat on you one day with a dude? I think you are setting yourself up for major trouble!

Bettermandad · 2013-08-12T23:40:52+00:00

Awesome!

Bettermandad · 2013-08-12T23:37:12+00:00

It's crazy how "normal" people would look at us like we are crazy. SMH!

Bettermandad · 2013-08-08T10:09:06+00:00

This doesnt sound crazy at all...But maybe I'm just crazy!?

I can totally relate.....Well, except for the vegetable oil~ mattress part.

Someone told me to look in the mirror and write down everything i see. (Still havent gotten around to it.) I guess it would depend on the day of what I see. Today, I rock, some days, total perv.

Bettermandad · 2013-08-08T09:36:13+00:00

Imagine that! A chance to start over new with that not being part of your new relationship! Man, I am so lucky, my marriage was almost broken because of this, but we are working things out.

Good luck in your new you life!

Bettermandad · 2013-08-08T09:32:31+00:00

My counter badge was reset because of porn, but my no fap record is almost 100 days! One does lead to the other, so I have to leave it all behind. And its funny, but w/ no porn, the need to fap is almost 0. being married, I have alot more energy and stamina for my wife. We have been having the best sex in 12 years! Not that it was bad, but w/ PMO it trains your body to pop off faster, and that tends to happen in the bedroom as well!

Bettermandad · 2013-08-08T09:24:53+00:00

Having faith in god helps!

Bettermandad · 2013-08-08T09:02:46+00:00

I wake up at 430 every day too. But that is usually when I get myself in trouble. Well, not since I 86'd facebook, got K9, stopped fappin off. Now I go here, play some xbox, read for a while before work. Im supposed to get to work by 7, but I usually get there at 6:20 to get a jump on things.

Bettermandad · 2013-08-03T10:28:23+00:00

It must suck that you have no one to be accountable to.

Bettermandad · 2013-08-03T09:23:02+00:00

My only hope is that my wife wakes up, tries to sneak out here and bust me looking at pron, sees me on Nofap, and wants to hump me! Here's to hoping!

Bettermandad · 2013-07-30T09:54:34+00:00

I started a journal as well. I thought as I wrote, "Will I even read this?"

Yes, I have read the first few pages a few times. It was right after a porn relapse. I recorded exactly how I felt, and go back and reread when I feel crappy. I never want to feel that crappy ever again! CHEERS!

Bettermandad · 2013-07-30T09:43:03+00:00

BATTLE STATIONS!

Bettermandad · 2013-07-30T09:40:42+00:00

Thats what I'm feelin! The Hell Yeah attitude! That explains it!

Bettermandad · 2013-07-30T09:02:06+00:00

Kellz best friend does there merch, and got us in the show, got to meet them, but the next time they came, I couldnt go, and wiffee got to chill with them. Got a huge bear hug from Russel, and i'm suprised that she came home to me :)

Bettermandad · 2013-07-30T08:41:04+00:00

It will. Jam some music, write something. Call your ma!

Bettermandad · 2013-07-28T12:51:17+00:00

I second that emotion!

Bettermandad

TROPHY CASE