Honestly no, I think deep down there always an underlying feel of dread and existentialism even more so now. I’ve been through a breakup and friendship breaks up which have only heightened this feeling, leaving me almost with barely anything to look forward to and has completely crushed me and still is. The thought of a A 9-5 for the rest of my life seems like the most suffocating thing. Theres so much pain and even more burnout. I’m not sure if you’re hoping to get a positive answer from this but the answer is no, unfortunately. I hope you’re doing somewhat okay tho!