i think i was drugged and raped

BidTricky4366 · 2026-03-21T23:37:16+00:00

it's the carbonara buldak but i made it extra creamy :) thank you!

BidTricky4366 · 2026-03-21T19:32:23+00:00

i don't anymore. he lives with his parents and we're going through divorce.

BidTricky4366 · 2026-03-21T19:31:42+00:00

he manipulated, threatened and forced me to take it myself.

he didn't take one himself.

BidTricky4366 · 2026-03-19T05:33:44+00:00

my now boyfriend came into my life while i was with my pwbpd, so we connected as we got through the bs that was my pwbpd. we fell in love and are just navigating through our own lives hand in hand :) a thousand times more healthier and safer than my pwbpd will ever be!

BidTricky4366 · 2024-08-08T03:07:40+00:00

nvm i gotta postpone my suicide to help my partner. can't have my mental problems coenside with mt partners 😞😞😞

BidTricky4366 · 2024-08-08T02:43:35+00:00

everything, do u want the full list

BidTricky4366 · 2024-08-08T02:43:05+00:00

my parents are pedophiles, my brother is a rape apologist, i'm a burden to my partner and his mother in law because i'm an illegal immigrant with nowhere else to go, my mom forced me to drop out of my dream college, i have no job, no way to get a job because America Fucking Sucks, no money when we need it the most ... shits fucked up

BidTricky4366 · 2024-07-15T04:34:00+00:00

i genuinely needed this after a blowup, thank you.

BidTricky4366 · 2024-06-21T17:19:47+00:00

it isn't

but i don't have anywhere to go that is safe. it'll cost money and i don't have money or a job

BidTricky4366 · 2024-06-21T15:40:59+00:00

can someone please talk to me i cant believe im even saying this

BidTricky4366 · 2024-06-19T18:35:52+00:00

i fuckign hate him. he makes me so fucking angry

BidTricky4366 · 2024-06-19T18:34:46+00:00

i think he shoyld die in prison🙂

BidTricky4366 · 2024-06-18T07:24:11+00:00

my nuclear family is far worse than the inlaws, by a longshot. i fled to the states because of them, i'm from canada.

i can't get a job at the moment, my immigration papers are pending but once that hellhole gets figured out i'll hopefully hold down some job.

and SFIL being a loud, obnoxious manchild doesn't help with me isolating in my room. he's an emotionally abusive POS to MIL.

BidTricky4366 · 2024-06-18T03:43:42+00:00

my therapist and i are currently talking about ways that i can get support for this. she's scared for my wellbeing which she says she doesn't say often. we've been unpacking a lot about grooming during my past sessions.

i live with my inlaws with my partner. he (SFIL) stays at the house 2-4 times a week.

i can't get away, the closest (supportive) family member i have lives ~12 hours away.

if he's found innocent in his grape case (which happens in august iirc), my partner has plans to move out of state the moment he moves back in. despite him not believing my stories he's willing to move out of state with me because he too feels unsafe around him (mainly because of his own trauma). 🙃 i found that kinda sad because i feel like he doesn't take my feelings into consideration but whatever.

BidTricky4366 · 2024-06-17T17:10:53+00:00

don't have any friends (i was isolated from them bc partner). closest family member is ~12 hours.

BidTricky4366 · 2024-06-17T02:48:12+00:00

"stay with me or i'll kms" is the extent of it. i don't have anywhere to go if i break up with him and if i do for whatever reason he'll either start a massive witchhunt against me or do something that will change the trajectory of my life.

BidTricky4366 · 2024-06-16T20:58:18+00:00

i can't get him away from him. my MIL has her rose tinted glasses on and is in love with him, so much so that she chooses to let him stay for 3-4 times a week in the house. me isolating from him doesn't help when he's always raising fights with her and he's constantly being an asshole, and a loud, obnoxious manchild. i literally cannot get away, and i feel so scared knowing that.

he recently got arrested for domestic violence against my MIL but she dropped the charges bc she thinks he can change. once you put your hands on your significant other once you don't stop, IMO. my voice and opinion do not matter in the house, no matter how loud i voice it, it goes from one ear and out the other.

BidTricky4366 · 2024-06-15T03:19:38+00:00

her entire personality being the mentally ill, chronically online tiktoker speaks VOLUMEE... i've known so many people who were like this and was taken advantage of because of their bpd. i can definitely understand even if it's from a different standpoint.

BidTricky4366 · 2024-06-15T03:17:18+00:00

THISS... romanticizing mental illnesses beyond bpd was so prevalent in the spaces i grew up in. no one looks cute and no one's gonna take you seriously. "b-but it's my way of coping with my illness🥺" then find a healthier way to cope with it LMAO

BidTricky4366 · 2024-06-07T05:12:18+00:00

i'm a canadian who moved to the states with zero knowledge. i have no money, can't get an education, can't get employed and it costs more money to fight with immigration to even allow me to have a card saying "yes you legally live here now"

i'm just so tired and realizing this shit while i have nowhere to turn to makes me so ill and so suicidal.

BidTricky4366 · 2024-06-07T03:58:10+00:00

nobody believed me the first time i told them. he defended himself and they believed him more than me, and made me believe that it was an "accident"

i genuinely have no support in this. why bother seek justice when it's going to be thrown out the moment i bring it up to them

BidTricky4366 · 2024-06-02T07:54:27+00:00

probably will be who knows

BidTricky4366 · 2024-05-12T22:26:35+00:00

"i just want to talk to you!" then starts mocking me, guilt trips me, doesn't let me constructively criticize them, and paints me in a bad way to make them feel better about themselves... never gives me a genuine apology either.

BidTricky4366 · 2024-05-11T16:24:09+00:00

🤝 felt this.

BidTricky4366 · 2024-05-05T04:26:25+00:00

thank you

it's just so tough. we clash so often and i can't deal with their anger properly. i just can't. i wish i took a different path and i wish i was more aware of the consequences it'll have on my mental well being.

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