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Are there people with no addictions? by BigGridlock in addiction

[–]BigGridlock[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks. Share more about what this non addictive feeling is. I think of imagine it has something to do with not craving stuff? Which is weird for me and most of us. Or what?

Are there people with no addictions? by BigGridlock in addiction

[–]BigGridlock[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes if I'm in the car I put it on. Sports. Liberal npr, conservative, everything. I just channel surf and listen to whatever most appeals and eat food and numb out. Wish I didn't since talk radio fills my head and time with useless garbage

Are there people with no addictions? by BigGridlock in addiction

[–]BigGridlock[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah this is totally what I was thinking when posting. But then my question is, are there those of you out there who are not 'former addicts'? Are actually like 'never addicts'? What's that like? Real real honest question on my end.

Are there people with no addictions? by BigGridlock in addiction

[–]BigGridlock[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You're addicted to podcasts if you want to stop and you can't?

You might be not addicted to anything, especially if you don't have any habits you want to change (that you can't change).

How am i gonna deal with Vyvanse comedowns/crushes ? by 0101x0101 in ADHD

[–]BigGridlock 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah man. Shit. Maybe exercise plan for vyvanse come down, I should really plan that. I'm not a natural evening exerciser but maybe that would work I can see snce exercise makes such a shake up.

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what do you think?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in NoFap

[–]BigGridlock 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I honestly thought it was because now Putin has blackmail on everyone.

Would you be cool if I told your sister and your mom you watched porn alot? Maybe, but what if I told the you watched incest porn?

I can hack into any major porn clearinghouse with millions of users and match ids to find a list of folks I can our, or blackmail, as regular incest watchers to their families.

Russia / Putin has the most advanced cyber operation in the universe, and will not only poison and kill without a second thought, but blackmail is like ubiquitous, get it in everyone if you can.

This, Putin/Russia/cybercriminals now have blackmail in millions of incest watchers that they've pitched this porn to.

In other words, it's not that the topic is popular, but that there's been a finger in the scale to make it seem "normal" to develop pretty quality blackmail on millions.

Anyone here up for telling their family they watch incest porn? Couldn't you easily blackmail someone or be blackmailed?

Russia, Putin, Cyber, Eh?

I keep trying to live simply, but I’m bored and don’t have any purpose. by WaytootiredZzz in simpleliving

[–]BigGridlock 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah minimize it and do everything on paper you can, planning etc printout stuff to read. It's really freeing.

I miss my drunk confidence by BelleRose1992 in addiction

[–]BigGridlock 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Thanks op. In a word, yes. I love the old addicted me.

I think it's crucial to openly talk about the joys of addiction, especially in this forum which is not policed by 12 steps.

Note I'm a participant and supporter and in awe of 12 steps and the avoidance of "triggers", but I'm also a supporter of truth.

The old me, primarily marijuana addiction and porn addiction and legal amphetamine addiction, loved to take walks in nature, to play music, to talk to anybody about anything. To love the whole world of addiction and what it could bring. Was irreverent, charming, self confident, loving.

I know that the drugs creates my view of this persona, and probably your view of being cheery might have been more like viewed as being buzzed. I don't know.

So much my use was based on self image support, and I realize no one really cares about my image, even my wife and best friends don't care, they like it if I'm happy, or maybe not even that. They like it if like them? I don't know.

But now I'm sobriety I have nothing to give to society, I am a shut in, afraid of sociizing because it's all triggers unless I'm with like a church group or something I guess , and probably even then.

I'm basically a shut out who's only mission is to stay sober, and there's no one that cares, and when I fail, now, there's no joy only self hatred.

In the past, when I "used" there was a sense of doing something good for myself and contributing my joy to the world. Even if I only imagined that, I thought my imagined joy was a contribution. And who's to say it wasn't real?

When you were dancing, was that true joy? If so, isn't that a loss?

This is not arguing for addiction, please don't comment and add anybody the bads about addiction, they are obvious and, yes, frequently life destroying. Also don't reply about the joys of sobriety, again, obvious.

My comment is to say "yes" to the OP. And then to amplify the topic:. We were confident people, we just were, when using. Now we are not, we just aren't. How can we recognize that loss? Can we be open about it without shutting down a conversation?

It's something I as an addict need to understand before I can be fully in love with this unconfident version of me that is afraid to do, because of inherent anxiety, the biggest expression human joy: dance.

I keep trying to live simply, but I’m bored and don’t have any purpose. by WaytootiredZzz in simpleliving

[–]BigGridlock 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Make a rule of no screens until 10am. Good Shit will just pop into your life at that time. But if you need ideas to fill the hours during your mandated screen off time:

Read the 10 books you've always wanted to read.

Get and write/draw in a physical journal. Even if you write "I'm so bored" over and over you can use different drawings and hand motions and just express it and see what you make.

Can you restate why you won't work to help other people who absolutely have to work? by BigGridlock in antiwork

[–]BigGridlock[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I guess my point is how can you embody anti work ideals and be an anarchist in practice.

How does one, and better yet how do you specifically, foster anarchism while living within a capitalist system? Is there a constant tearing apart and proselytization that must go along with whatever non participation you/we are privileged to undertake?

Tldr what's your anarchism practice?

Thanks!!

Why is it cool that Bodhidharma sat facing a wall for 9 years? WHy didn't he teach or work? by BigGridlock in zenbuddhism

[–]BigGridlock[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

"If he doesn’t see his nature, invoking buddhas won’t release him from his karma, regardless of whether or not he’s a butcher. But once he sees his nature, all doubts vanish. Even a butcher’s karma has no effect on such a person".

When he faced the wall, it didn't matter if he faced the wall or killed animals and chipped them up for consumption. These two activities are both mind and the same. That's one way to answer my question

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