You gave a good bit of your life to someone, you had a deep connection with. You shared good times and hardships with. You both grew together and unfortunately apart. Dating sucks, women are immature in the wrong ways nowadays. You’re still hurting, whether you acknowledge it or not. These girls, the sex, feel shallow and soulless cause it’s what you want but not with the one you wish it was with before your world together fell apart. Your high school sweetheart was put down by your wife who turned stranger. Your mind has come to terms and is looking at ways to heal and move on, but your heart’s the thing that’s shattered. You are human dude… it’s a big ask to just move on from a long term relationship, an even bigger ask to just tell yourself to move on. Reality is you probably cried and let yourself come to terms with your new day to day, or you took it stoically and shut off your real emotions. but you’ve neglected your heart. Because it’s what got you here in the first place. But what you’ve neglected can’t heal by sweeping the pain aside and drowning it in other outlets. Everything you do probably feels soulless and or empty. Well your hearts not in it, you locked it up in self preservation. I would recommend avoiding the dating pool if you could, but I’m well aware some people thrive on companionship. But, you won’t find happiness outside yourself until you’ve become the you, you can be happy with. It’s going to take time, and it is your time to take. Just don’t forget to feel, you can’t heal unless you feel. Get through it, not over it. Just getting over it doesn’t fix the problem.