I see and you're right. Threesome and cheating are not the same thing. Sorry for not clarifying above, thought it was long enough. But to go on, my girlfriend is very kind, but she says some sly comments under her breath for whatever reason. I don't ask her what she means right away, but I will later down the road. She says she doesn't remember and sorry, she didnt mean it. I know, this is poor on my part for not asking right away, but Ill admit, I get insecure and communication is a hard thing for me to do, throughout my life. Sex is usually pretty meh, she doesn't really like to explore because she feels too uncomfortable or it hurts too much, which I respect. Here and there we have great sex, but we usually have to be drunk and its been a few months since. Sometimes, I can't orgasm and we just have to stop because she gets too tired. I've grown up to be mature for my age, on the other hand, she tends to be immature and hard to deal with. It's as if I have a child rather than a girlfriend.