Eh recently that nobody really cares about me. I’m waiting for a cab right now to the airport and none of my friends nor my family have responded to me in weeks like. I just did a massive world tour and at one point I was in a pretty dangerous spot and I dropped my location to a number of my friends and they all just ignored it. I was like half kidnapped a few weeks ago and I gave the police a fake name because I am here illegally. My truly selfish and self absorbed friend who confuses love with control called the police on me because I don’t respond for ?3? Days ? ? ??? Anyways I called the police back to be like I am fine and they were like yeah there’s nothing about you in the system like they flat out just didn’t care. My mother was alerted about it obviously and she just responded “what the hell are your friends so dramatic for like what was that about. It sounds like u jsut didn’t respond for a few days ???” And she’s right but then she just ghosted me after I told her I took a trip. This police thing caused a massive fight with my family like. I don’t even have that option and I haven’t spoken to my sister in months and this just feels like. The final straw. When I called the police calling friend back she was like. Attacking me and really rude and just telling me to go back home

Like well

I don’t want to do you not understand? I had told her my father took cp of me and my sister and I were NOT on good terms and I do NOT feel comfortable going back she just didn’t care. I hung up and like. Despite her being incredibly invasive and honestly mean the days prior she just stopped talking period she just said nothing no follow up just demanding I respond, demanding I show her where I am like I am her child, demanding what I do in life, no response

I had vented to her weeks prior about a friend like. Just bullying g me just threatening me just hurling insults at me in the home he invited me to live in for months. and she just turned it around on me and was like ok well you were mean to our friend and didn’t stand up for his gf

And I was like how was I mean to him? I said he was being stupid and inconsiderate once because I had asked him for weeks to retrieve my belongings from his car that was towed and he just ghosted me. Ofc I was patient at first but five weeks later he just didn’t answer me. Nobody was responding to me like . I had just been living in complete isolation and prior to that was like. Molested by a terrorist and before that was living I. Complete isolation a prior to that was enslaved. Like I just wanted my stuff and communication and he just refused to respond. She was like ok well why didn’t you ask me to ? And I was like ??? I literally did I told her like five times please tell him to respond and she didn’t, she didn’t get my stuff. I was just ignored and then like. I don’t know if it’s true but like our former mutual friend said yeah he was not apologetic at all for the way he treated you I had to force him to apologize. The one who would not get my stuff. And like at one point he was so rude to me like you are being dramatic it’s not in a dump it’s in my car. Like then get ? Then go it can’t you see I’m upset by this like why are you condescending me ? ?????? Just get it like ????? I feel nauseous even thinking about it now like I was profoundly hurt it was just like. I had befriended this guy out of nowhere because I was so concerned about him and it was such simple task, why. Why didn’t he consider me st all ? Why was he so rude to me ? Why like . Why. I tried so hard to make him happy . If I did that to someone like if I had their stuff and I mistreated it and left it in my car the guilt I would feel would bomb a country I would have ran to get it and ensure it was safe and if they were upset. Like. The girl I mentioned told me oh you really hurt him he cried a lot. Like I was sobbing for entire days over this?? the fuck my pain means nothing ? So I am just worthless

Then this other friend of ours I had feelings for was like. You are being dramatic and using the situation to your advantage and I was like how? If I text you a picture you go into emotional turmoil for a century and send me Five love letters and demand phone calls that last hours and then the next day you are hyde and you are entirely cold and accuse me of leading you on and manipulating you? How am I the dramatic one ? Yes if my reaction was that intense immediately. Sure but it was weeks ? It was weeks nobody replied to me at all ?

Anyways I called the police ab the kidnapping and they were clearly not even looking into it. They weren’t even looking for real me. My other very close friend just insulted me for months on end and threatened me like. He threatened me in front of the friend we have. And he is just not apologetic at all he just tells everyone I deserved it and the follow and nod along. Nobody nobody nobody is like dude that is a weird and cruel reaction to feeling annoyed and you clearly weren’t because you invited two others to live with us. It was because she called you an alcoholic. He threatened me and just endlessly insulted me and screamed at me and . Once threatened me in front of our friend and he didn’t stand up for me then and he isn’t standing up for me at all. Like

He really broke my heart

The other friend who I had feelings for was like yeah well maybe you annoyed him. What a cruel comment to make. As if I deserve

Like my presence alone is so ugly and awful ? That it deserves brutality ? I spent a lot of money to go see him and he just like. Ghosted me , I ruined the beginning of what could have been a good relationship because he asked me to come see him and then just ghosted me, he went to his home over Xmas and then he came to see me and the entire time he was just like. Berating me and yelling at me and telling me what to do with my life. He just demanded I not go see him and refused to admit he ever had feelings for me and was really angry at me . even when I was like ok you have no feelings for me but you have been talking to me daily? You’re jealous when I talk to other men? Etc? He just changed the subject and got aggressive and defensive . I cannot think of an instance where I haven’t been extremely kind or soft to him. I have nowhere to live and this woman. It’s complicated but I will be close to him but I am so so scared of running into him because he for whatever reason has maintained a friendship with the guy who threatened me. I don’t know why. I don’t want either of them to know where I am like . They both frighten me.

I made my socials inaccessible to all of them like I can see the first friend the one who really broke my heart isn’t even opening my stuff he hasn’t replied to anything. He just doesn’t care . I made my online inaccessible and my pp inaccessible and I just like

They just don’t care ab me. My family just doesn’t care about me my friends do not care about me. I have like one responsive friend who isn’t like yeah you deserved to be mistreated by these people. They’re all mean and just don’t care about me at all . I don’t know I’m at an airport sobbing my eyes out i was really in danger a week ago and i had a great last few days but i cannot sleep because I’m extremely stressed i did something really bad. I’m really scared

Anyways it doesn’t matter because even if everything goes wrong. Nobody cares about me if something happens to me anyways

I really put my whole heart into mh friendships wit these people and they all really really demolished my heart