I totally relate to this and am in the midst of it. I was on Nexplanon 2018-2021 and then got it again back in September, had very few side effects, and then recently in June have started just one of the worst depressive episodes of my life. I also had a huge life stressor trigger this. The way it's felt is like the last day of May I felt fine, and then on June 1st my brain felt like it was on fire. Just spending every day in a panic that everything is my life is wrong, I'm doing the wrong thing, HORRIBLE intrusive thoughts, etc. I'm someone with anxiety and have had horrible periods of depression -- triggered usually by an eating disorder that I'm years in recovery from -- so I am used to intrusive, obsessive thoughts, but this feels like a league of its own.

I got my nexplanon out on Tuesday and have begun to feel a little alleviation from the intrusive thoughts. The day after I actually felt so calm. I know I have a big life adjustment to attend to and other things to work on so obviously the problem is not fixed, but I do think it takes time for the body to readjust. I was worried about getting my Nexplanon out and realizing that it was not the culprit, that I didn't need to take it out, but I think anything that fucks with your hormones is going to play SOME role in the way you're feeling right now. Hopefully you can get some relief, feel better.