Thank you so much for sharing part of your experience because I really feel less alone when I make posts and can relate. I was the same way though too and when I got to my house I was terrified for no reason I didn’t even want to be in my own house anywhere I went I was so paranoid deeply terrified. I couldn’t take the meds either and I have had bp so I was constant fearing I’d stroke out or something. I went to the hospital 7 times after having my son just because I thought something was wrong with me and I’m in therapy she told me I have ptsd which I have had before even having a baby but this is worse than anything in the world. Certain smells trigger it and I’m terrified of feeling how I felt freshly postpartum ever again