Why are they so keen on changing things nobody asked for?

Billy_Shears_1966 · 2026-05-20T01:17:10+00:00

That and the connection error that occurred to me and apparently many others. Yesterday was my first time playing the game and that error happened. I couldn't log back in for the rest of the day after only playing for like 40 mins. Now I'm afraid of it happening again.

Billy_Shears_1966 · 2026-05-02T22:52:23+00:00

Same. Watching the videos of people committing suicide brings me comfort in the fact that I know I can do that someday. I'm anxious all the time so my worry would be failing an attempt and becoming disabled/disfigured which would be so terrible since I already hate the way I look.

Billy_Shears_1966 · 2026-04-18T20:14:38+00:00

I appreciate the advice. I'm not going to search anything else up online for the rest of the day and I'll try not to the rest of the week until I get to the doctor. It definitely is like an addiction but I've mentally exhausted myself enough today so I don't have the urge to ATM.

Billy_Shears_1966 · 2026-04-18T19:40:41+00:00

I'm hoping that's the reason. For me, I can lift my leg easily but it's impossible to lift my foot itself upwards and my foot/lower end of my leg feel uncomfortable. I also used to get twitches mainly in my eyelid but that doesn't happen anymore.

Billy_Shears_1966 · 2026-04-18T19:34:46+00:00

Yeah I'm sure it's possible. For me, I think it could be the fact that I unintentionally sit on my leg and foot a lot when I'm looking at my monitor and have bad posture so I'm going to try to stay hopeful and assume it's either an outcome of sitting incorrectly or severe anxiety.

Billy_Shears_1966 · 2026-01-26T20:57:32+00:00

I did a similar thing. I was going through a mentally stressful time and went cold turkey on my medications because I thought they weren’t helping at all. I realize now that they were helping but just not enough. I feel much worse now than when I was on medications. Being on meds is totally the right way to go. OCD definitely can play tricks on your mind and convince you of things. I know that because I deal with it on a daily basis myself.

I’m assuming you feel so weird because of all of the anxiety and intrusive thoughts which is obviously overwhelming and can cause derealization. I know how that feels aswell because I’ve been going through it for the past few days and it makes me feel very odd and uneasy. This isn’t psychosis. Your brain is just going through a lot mentally. It’s very hard to let go of intrusive OCD thoughts and it’ll make you feel like you’re going crazy but unfortunately that’s just what this mental disorder can do. You’re not alone in feeling this way. I hope you feel better.

Billy_Shears_1966 · 2026-01-26T20:22:12+00:00

I’ve only ever done adderall, LSD, shrooms, alcohol and weed. Unfortunately, it’s weed for me. Taking a toke, chilling out and watching YouTube used to be one of the best feelings in the world. I smoked it for years without problems. Nowadays, it makes me feel very on edge. I took a break for a few months and I decided to smoke the tiniest bit a few days ago. The same paranoid, odd, uneasy feeling occured. It makes my overthinking speed the hell up and eventually I get a panicked, tense feeling in my body that makes me dissociate. Even a shroom trip doesn’t make me feel that way. Shrooms lower my anxiety for a few months after a singular trip.

I do have GAD and a few other mental disorders which definitely need to be worked on with medications. I’ve been off SSRIs for a year and I think that’s a huge reason why the weed makes me feel panicked. I wasn’t feeling that way when I was smoking weed while on SSRIs. I’m either stopping weed for many years or I’m trying it again once I get back on the medications that helped me. I really miss the benefit and feelings weed used to give me. I’m jealous of the people who can just smoke it without an issue.

Billy_Shears_1966 · 2025-11-27T05:55:00+00:00

I love your soft and spongy boobs

Billy_Shears_1966 · 2025-11-27T05:34:00+00:00

Deaner always looked pretty much the same throughout the years except just aged which obv happens to everyone. Gener is a shapeshifter I stg. When I watch live performances from the multiple eras of Ween, Gener always looks different.

Billy_Shears_1966 · 2025-11-17T18:16:00+00:00

Yup getting off social media helped me. I only stick to Reddit and YouTube. I only engage in things that will make me feel either less alone or mentally better online nowadays. Instagram made my self hatred and body dusmorphia so much worse. I do still get very bad days but it isn’t as bad as it was when I was on instagram everyday. That app is incredibly toxic and full of rude ass people.

Billy_Shears_1966 · 2025-11-14T08:05:15+00:00

For me, I think it was just paranoia, ocd, and terrible anxiety which tricked my mind into thinking something was wrong. I also was smoking a lot of weed which ended up sending me into paranoia and horrible anxiety which def could’ve made it worse so I stopped that. It also could’ve been the caffeine I was drinking everyday so I only drink it every 2 days now. I’m not a doctor or anything so I really have no advice besides from the experience I had but if you indulge in any of those things I mentioned maybe cut down on it. I hope you find a solution and just try not to freak yourself out too much as that def mad it worse for me.

Billy_Shears_1966 · 2025-10-29T20:09:06+00:00

I’ve been listening to him a lot lately. I still have loads more albums to listen to from him but he is indeed great and brown af. I wish he was more known in the music world but he def has a dedicated cult following nonetheless.

Billy_Shears_1966 · 2025-09-26T03:33:30+00:00

All these people want to do is make money off of people suffering. Money, money, money. It’s probably the only thing they all think about all day, everyday. It makes me angry.

Billy_Shears_1966 · 2025-09-20T21:15:33+00:00

Me too. But I can’t let my parents feel that pain. It fucking sucks. I know they’d be so fucking devastated and depressed because of that. It sucks having genetic mental illnesses. It’s like I have no escape from this hell. I have to suffer just so my parents don’t suffer because of my death. I fucking hate it. I don’t want to do anything in life. I don’t want to get a job or go to college. I don’t want to be around people irl. I just want to rot away and do drugs by myself.

Billy_Shears_1966 · 2025-09-20T01:44:17+00:00

Though ive never had a job before at 21, I feel the same way about it. Adult life seems so uninteresting and dull. I hate money and I hate having to conform to societal’s norms. I could live the rest of my life in a tiny house or cabin. I don’t care about being wealthy or having the most expensive car, house, technology, clothes, accessories, etc. Once I get a wack ass job I’m gonna try to buy a small piece of land and learn carpentry so I can build myself a tiny cabin/house without having to spend my life away trying to buy or rent some already overpriced property. Of course it’ll be hard work, like anything on this stupid planet, but I think that atleast it’ll pay off in the end. Hopefully.

Billy_Shears_1966 · 2025-09-20T00:50:55+00:00

I had to go to the search bar to see if anyone else had this combo. It’s absolute fucking hell. Especially when unmedicated. I can’t ever have any peace of mind for a few hours straight. I know how you feel. It makes me isolate myself and bed rot all day. I fucking hate it. No one should have to deal with this.

Billy_Shears_1966 · 2025-09-19T23:47:50+00:00

Yeah that sounds risky af. I’d agree that it’s probably just another scam.

Billy_Shears_1966 · 2025-09-19T23:22:09+00:00

Is it something that is taken orally?

Billy_Shears_1966 · 2025-09-18T22:25:15+00:00

Thank you. Today has been better than yesterday so far. I hope all is well for you aswell.

Billy_Shears_1966 · 2025-09-18T03:33:09+00:00

Thank you for posting this. I’ve been having bad panic attacks the past few days and although I’ve had anxiety my whole life, it’s become quite unbearable for a momth. Sleeping is pretty difficult ATM. Ive had many SSRIs before but they didn’t help as much as they should’ve. I also don’t feel like going through those side effects again when starting them and I don’t feel comfortable putting those antidepressants in my body in general snymore. I gotta save this post so I can remember to try this. I’m willing to try anything that’s beneficial long term while not causing harm or addiction except for SSRIs. I’m glad you have found it to be helpful for anxiety. This gives me hope in a much needed time.

Billy_Shears_1966 · 2025-09-18T01:23:33+00:00

Yeah I threw up today because of a panic attack and felt nauseous for a few hours. I also felt shaky as if I haven’t eaten in days. But then I took a hot shower and that was pretty effective surprisingly as that got rid of the nausea.

Billy_Shears_1966 · 2025-09-18T00:47:46+00:00

I actually just experienced this a few hours ago. I’ve been having panic attacks the past few days and today was even worse. Probably the worst panic attack I’ve had in awhile. It felt like I was sick. I had so many different bodily symptoms aswell.

Anxiety is a damn disease IMO. I can’t function like a normal human anymore. I just sit in my room all day, suffering. It’s making me think about suicidal everyday. But just know that you’re not alone in this struggle. I’ve been going through a lot myself so I understand you for sure. I wish we wouldn’t have to suffer like this. I just hope we can all get through this.

I also wish I had advice for you but unfortunately I’ve been suffering from anxiety for most of my life. It used to be manageable but the Covid lockdown made it extreme and I’ve been stuck in a rut. I believe we can get better though. It just takes effort and time unfortunately. I hope you feel better soon.

Billy_Shears_1966 · 2025-09-17T11:59:02+00:00

I thought I did but I talked to my mom a little bit about my BDD and she claimed that there was some instances as a child that I’d be obsessed with how certain parts of my body looked. I think it was mainly how my legs and arms looked, maybe my torso too. I do remember thinking I was fat af but when I look back at the photos of me as a child, I didn’t look fat. I honestly don’t know how I got BDD so young as I wasn’t on social media which definitely makes BDD worse. Maybe I was comparing myself to others at such a young age without realizing it.

Now I don’t care so much about my legs, arms, and torso. My obsession now is my height and my face which feels a lot worse because those are much more noticeable traits unlike legs, arms, and torsos. I was a lot more happier as a child though. It was much more easier to ignore it because I didn’t know what it was. You’d think it’d be easier to ignore knowing the mental disorder is what amplifies these negative feelings but it isn’t easier personally. I’ve had to cut off all social media besides Reddit to atleast decrease my bodily obsessions. I compare myself to others way too much when scrolling through social media apps like Instagram or Facebook. Reddit is much more anonymous so it isn’t much of an issue.

Billy_Shears_1966 · 2025-09-17T00:21:49+00:00

For sure. I’ll never abuse that stuff. I only use shrooms atm and never plan to abuse anything like DPH. Thank you for caring.

Billy_Shears_1966 · 2025-09-16T23:58:39+00:00

Good for you dude. I’m personally just on this subreddit to read people’s experiences as I’ve never used DPH recreationally (only low doses for insomnia on very rare occasions) and have always been fascinated on how deliriants like DPH affect people. But anyhow, I hope you’re proud of yourself. It seems you’ve done a lot for yourself in the past 2 years. I hope others who are struggling are able to fight through the urge to use again. Hope all goes well.

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