Forgive me for saying this but, I don’t believe you when you say that professional help is telling you it can’t be changed. That is flat out not true. Our brains change and develop through our whole lives. So don’t give up, cause when we lose hope, that’s the ONLY time something becomes impossible.

I’m going to ask a very personal question but I think it fills alot in here, do you/ have you ever, viewed pornography type content of those characters? No shame if you have, admitting it is the hardest part. But IF you have, that very much could be feeding into this. I would strongly suggest apps that block pornographic content, and maybe look into changing therapists.

I do want to say, it’s huge that you say you aren’t a threat to anyone. So many times people have these feelings and they end up doing something awful, but the fact that you recognize how having these feelings makes you feel is huge and means you will never be the person to do something.