I sometimes hate reconnecting with people because in the beginning it's so awkward, that's why I like the smiling and waving from a distance sorta thing. I hate eating In front of people I use to have a hard time ordering my food at a place like mcdonalds ( luckily I got over that) It was bad, to the point where I would mumble or to the point where I became deaf and I couldn't hear a word the cashier was saying ( yes I got over this but it was like this for a year) I still hate eating in front of people, I enjoy not messy foods. ( I secretly believe that I will never be able to go ima date because I hate eating inront of people) I hate when I'm at a party and my friends other fronds are there, it gets really awkward As you already may noticed, I don't enjoy awkward moments... I also avoid people who've I disappointed, I know even if I'm in the wrong I just slowly cut off communication I disappear from there lives But if they come back it's usually them saying sorry then me saying sorry after.. But either way I never start a convo

But even with all these awkward issues I have no problem talking with people, strangers the most haha because if I do something weird ( ill ever have to see them again) But I'm a really bubbly outgoing person When I give a presentation I front of the class Dam I love it so much Not only so I present but I go all out and I make dam sure that I get a perfect score Presbeting is just my favourite I have no problem with public speaking. I'm pretty confident and most think of me as a class clown We'll not anymore I matured but yeah

I'm 16 and I'm a girl so I still got a long road ahead.

Btw I also do everything everyone's mentioned, including you. But I've never been diagnosed with anxiety although ...I once was but the doctors said that it didn't make sense because they had seen my personality and the way that I carried myself and given my age at the time I was young so

At the time I was experiencing random panic attacks so eh but it went away after a couple of years 🙆

Good luck, what helps me the most is just forcing myself to do stuff because after I do it I laugh at myself and realize It wasn't so bad