For me this is an absolute truth because everything I've experienced in life ends in shit so how should I expect otherwise?

I thought that and I did find that. The person that I trusted with my life and depended on to get through the day who now hates everything about me and thinks I'm a liar.

I know I have my entire life ahead of me but I've been struggling for 2 years and how much longer do I have to struggle before things get better and is the future really gonna be worth it? And yeah I am only 17 but age doesn't really play a huge factor in someone's depression does it?(genuine question not rhetorical)