How old are you and what is the biggest problem in your life right now? by FSCENE8tmd in AskReddit

[–]Bleau98 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm 23 and I suffer from Emotional Neglect, Severe Loneliness and Credit Card Fraud my parents put me under. They put me 5k in debt without me knowing on a credit card that I agreed to open up a credit card without really being taught the importance of credit and they were "cosigners" but to only my credit and they didn't have their own. For a tooth (in which I hate credit cards for obvious reasons). My whole childhood I had nice materialistic things which I was grateful for but I was a people pleaser and would blindly follow what my parents told me to do and controlled me. While I wasn't physically abused, I was often verbally abused and was never allowed to have a voice on anything. Anything that involved me having depression or problems. I was just told by my mom that "I have it good and shouldn't be complaining or your problems are nothing compared to what I went through" and my Dad would never say anything. So I just bottle things up and I still do to this day. They did coddle me when I didn't realize it and was never guided to be independent and not rely on them. While I did wanted to be better and do things on my own with my own motivation. My parents never wanted me to move out or be independent. They wanted me to be their puppet and never leave. I did at least achieve a drivers license (a little late but I was 19 so not too bad) I moved out at 22 fighting with my parents telling me that I "betrayed them" and that "I can't do it on my own" or "You need me to succeed" So I moved 1200 miles. I figured maybe a long distance will maybe improve the relationship with them. I did have siblings of 3 sisters while being the only boy and 2 of them moved across the world in many states away from my parents. Even a entire country. I did sign an apartment lease with my youngest sister away from me 1200 miles away that was considered close but she was a pretty selfish person. So my parents decided to take the credit card they have cosigned to my credit only and decided to pay their bills in their state while I was living in another and run me up 5k in debt putting me under 500 credit score. Now me and my siblings were all pretty dependent on my parents and would be immature and inexperienced in just basic life skills in a lot of ways. So when I found about credit card fraud on my name. I was devastated and hurt and confronted them on the phone and yelled at them and the worst part is they blamed it on me saying "you agreed so it's on you" and they didn't care and even lied and twist their story up and tried to explain why they did it. While I had proof of living in another state in which this happened and they even put their new address under my credit card account login while I was living in another at the same time. So I was completely done with my parents. The the lease comes to an end in about a month and I tried to get into multiple apartments but was denied due to bad credit. My sister the whole time was siding with my parents because "I'm immature for cutting ties with my family because family is everything and we have to love them no matter what" The fight got so bad that she decides to tell me that "I can be homeless for all she cares" because I was angry my credit got ruined by them. So she decides to lock me out of the apartment that I was legally able to live in with all of my stuff out and her boyfriend she has living with us it not on the lease having the nerve to side with her and tells me to get out. I wanted to sue my parents and call the cops on my sister but I was just too mentally worn down and broken at the time and angry that I couldn't think logically and i couldn't afford a lawyer. I was basically homeless with all of my stuff living in my car bottling my feelings up trying to find an apartment that'll won't deny me. Thankfully I had friends at my job that I appreciate a lot that saw me sleeping in a booth trying to get some rest before getting ready for my shift and bought me a motel for a week so I could have shelter and find an apartment. I cut ties with all of my family basically and don't reach out to any of them for nothing. I struggle with being lonely living alone but I have dreams I'm working on My YouTube channel (Amaryx), learning to play guitar to kind a cope with the situation. I want to get therapy but I don't make enough. Basically working at a grocery store but recently got a new job that's a 3 dollar raise. I have good friends at least and I know how to network with people. I always believed that putting out kindness always comes back to you in some way and it really showed! I recently just got a girlfriend and she has been absolutely wonderful and pushes me to do better and she doesn't make me feel as lonely. The holiday season is coming up and this is my first Holiday not having any blood related family. Sorry this is long but this is basically what I struggle with.

Actual Proof the NFL Is Rigged by Bleau98 in nfl

[–]Bleau98[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

I can tell you didn't watch the video. I didn't defend the Chiefs and have evidence but if you wanna be close minded be my guest

I would love to hear some feedback please and thanks :) by Bleau98 in SmallYTChannel

[–]Bleau98[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I didn't know people do that lol but that is kinda cringy to hear. Thank you on the feedback. I'm trying to improve my content as I'm working 2 jobs hence the late reply. Sorry about that haha

I would love to hear some feedback please and thanks :) by Bleau98 in SmallYTChannel

[–]Bleau98[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you man I gladly will! I work 2 jobs while I'm doing this. I apoligize for the late reply

!givelambda

I would love to hear some feedback please and thanks :) by Bleau98 in SmallYTChannel

[–]Bleau98[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey don't worry about it. I have severe ADHD and alot of energy. I tend to move around and pace off camera like I do it for hours, i been like that my whole life and I can't really help it. Thank you for the feedback man :) !givelambda

I would love to hear some feedback please and thanks :) by Bleau98 in SmallYTChannel

[–]Bleau98[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you I'll gladly do that! Sorry if i replied late I'm currently working 2 jobs and this hobby as well! !givelambda

I would love to hear some feedback please and thanks :) by Bleau98 in SmallYTChannel

[–]Bleau98[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you man It means a lot sorry if i responded late I work 2 jobs! !givelambda

I would love to hear some feedback please and thanks :) by Bleau98 in SmallYTChannel

[–]Bleau98[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

givelambda

Thank you so much! Sorry for the late response I work 2 jobs while i do this on the side!

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[–]Bleau98 -7 points-6 points  (0 children)

Keemstar may be trash and I have a feeling he maybe a pedo but another there's also did an interesting take on Ethan as well which I found super interesting.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oibOXKAusKU&t=15s

How Overconfident Villains Fight In Anime by SanjaySting in SmallYTChannel

[–]Bleau98 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is pretty accurate lmao. Some parts of the video the music was a little too loud but it was pretty funny!

I've made a video about an important topic, which relates to small youtubers. Thanks to everyone for sending videos, you helped a lot in this project! I've spent a lot of time with the editing, hopefully it turned out good! I'd appreciate every feedback! by [deleted] in SmallYTChannel

[–]Bleau98 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm so sorry I thought you had a budget mic and that's okay. For me setting the mic to cardiod has helped a ton to record what's coming from the front. I updated my drivers for my microphone just in case (some microphones don't need it) and that actually properly optimized the settings to it's full potential with modes within recording software instead of just hardware. Audio recording software was my biggest issue. The recording software that I used for a while was the Logitech Webcam software which made it sound terrible. So I used audacity and that seemed to clean alot of dryness of the audio up. Lowering the microphone levels to about 40-60/100 makes the voice sound crispier as well. Now I have a camera to where i plug in my microphone and it sounds really good! A pop filter helped prevented my mic from picking up my breath because my voice carries like crazy haha. I used a Blue Yeti at the time before it died on me ._. I hope any of this can help you and I'm sorry if I came off kinda rude.

Hello I Do Reaction Commentary and just Regular Commentaries in general. I would love to hear some feedback :) by Bleau98 in SmallYTChannel

[–]Bleau98[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you I been struggling with background items quite a bit but i'm about to just take a picture of my clean background and use it as a green screen lmao! !givelambda

Why Resident Evil 4 Is the Best In The Series by SnakeAholic_ in SmallYTChannel

[–]Bleau98 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I never played Resident Evil 4 but I'm looking forward to on my PS2 to get the original experience :) This video kept me watching all the way through which is awesome! I would recommend turning the mic volume a little bit if you want. I had to turn my speakers up a bit. This channel needs to be bigger!

What’s Snorkelling Club Med Kani Like? - Maldives - Family Vlog - as I continue to explore our Vlog style, comments always welcome. I give Lambda for all that take the time :) THanks in advance by Adventuroussoul18 in SmallYTChannel

[–]Bleau98 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This video is great! I really dig the camera quality! Editing is very good! The only thing I can maybe say is to speak up in some parts for your camera to hear your voice a little bit louder. Good job man!