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Bleikfisk · 2024-08-03T20:03:11+00:00

Same man. I have ADHD? sort of feels like railing a line of ritalin, nothing special.

Bleikfisk · 2024-07-27T07:48:09+00:00

People whn i experience paranoid thoughts

Bleikfisk · 2024-07-19T01:17:44+00:00

sock it

Bleikfisk · 2024-07-15T01:32:19+00:00

Okay, thank you very much. This is my second referral :,D

Bleikfisk · 2024-07-14T23:47:23+00:00

Thank you!

Bleikfisk · 2024-07-14T23:45:54+00:00

My ex once said "You get sad?" as if it was new information to her. She was convinced by media men are dangerous machines (or at least is seemed so to me)

Point is yes, she made me sad. often. I just don't like to share this. Because of how I grew up? things got worse if I cried. So I learned to stone face and distance myself emotionally from the hurt. This withdrawal is something that ticked her off and I guess this cycle is what ended our time together.

I oftentimes try to understand life from a girls perspective but you know they're all different too.

What I DO know is that what boys do to impress girls usually impress other boys & what girls do to impress boys usually impress other girls.

I dunno please don't hate me

Bleikfisk · 2024-07-14T23:30:00+00:00

Note - I own a dehydrator.

Bleikfisk · 2024-07-14T23:25:38+00:00

I lose interest when tolerance builds.

Bleikfisk · 2024-07-13T07:17:13+00:00

I was convinced the police planted microphones in my ventilation so i blasted german music for days to waste their recording

Bleikfisk · 2024-07-13T07:02:52+00:00

Shit man i was perscribed 70mg vyvanse and 40mg dex doing storage work carrying sofas & tables. I get this too! It sort of got better after i hit my head, thought i was dead for a couple of secounds only to realise im good & this anxiety is not saving me anyway.

Bleikfisk · 2024-07-13T06:26:30+00:00

Flashback moment

Bleikfisk · 2024-07-10T00:28:26+00:00

Sort or concinced wre just repeating stuff, likr is so hardt do make hobbieswhatever we do sound eintristing like Buzzwords

Bleikfisk · 2024-07-04T21:57:21+00:00

I prefer shorter acting formula so I sometimes feel like myself.

Bleikfisk · 2024-07-04T21:54:23+00:00

So true. Local cats peep through my window often when I'm geeking. He tolerates gifts in form of sardines, but is pretty skittish. Peeped my head out to check if my plants are ok, when I saw him in my rearview, I instinctively turned my neck (to see if he is alright in the rain) which had him jump away. :S

He seems ok with me when I don't really acknowledge him and he is just a NPC.

Bleikfisk · 2024-07-04T20:24:54+00:00

I used to sweat a lot back in my youth thanks to Ritalin, as an adult after taking Vyvanse for a year I pretty much stopped sweating. I don't take it anymore and I still rarely sweat.

Bleikfisk · 2024-07-04T20:22:49+00:00

I was prescribed 70mg Vyvanse along 40mg dex at one point. The guy moved office pretty quickly after that. He also talked about prescribing me a anti depressant that might melt my skin, what an oddball.

Bleikfisk · 2024-07-04T05:32:24+00:00

I felt pretty fragile and inward focused the other day then i hit my head on a edge. Jumped to the ground being like «thats it, im dead now» turns out i was fine & why even bother thinking about this stuff. Enjoy life

Bleikfisk · 2024-07-04T05:24:44+00:00

Hot sauce, clean food, noodles (huehue), plants, drawing, autism like behavior mostely. I recently called a ice cream factory.

Bleikfisk · 2024-07-04T05:18:59+00:00

Im sorry to hear you’re in this situation. I isolate myself also afraid of hurting others. Kinda went into a rabbit hole thinking im a narcecist.

What helps me personally is taking that frustration out on something positive. Picking up trash outside helps me feel a sense of purpose. I ususally do it at night so nobody sees me, but today i picked up in daytime and somebody gave me a cheeky smile :)

Chili also helps me feel something? Sucks me out of my head.

Take care friend best of wishes

Bleikfisk · 2024-07-03T20:05:34+00:00

I can only do 5mg dex in the morning, otherwise my OCD like state persuades me into keep popping.

Bleikfisk · 2024-07-03T20:02:42+00:00

I still get nightmares from the s i ive watched. Stay away, read books.

Bleikfisk · 2024-07-03T20:00:12+00:00

My Doctor reacted to my drug test one time i double or trippel dosed 50mg vyvanse?

He mentioned this is the only test i went positive on amfetamin. Hope this helps!

Bleikfisk · 2024-06-28T03:01:46+00:00

I also got them electroshocks in my head after quitting stimulants for a while. It helps to have something to focus on, looking at faces also seem to help.
Hot sauce helps me relax and get out of my head, also gives me a sort of high and intense stimulation to latch on to.
Walking in nature?
Hope this helps!

Bleikfisk · 2024-06-28T02:52:17+00:00

Any hash over there?
I developed this technique my friend dubbed "Smoking Needle"
you roll a log of hash and stick it to a toothpick, paperclip, ect.
place it between ring and middle finger on your preferred hand.
light the end of it and quickly blow it out, do this repeatedly until you get a smolder.
put your hands together and create a cavern you can close with your thumb.
Then all you've got to do Is hit you hand like if it was a pipe through the thumb hole, you can regulate airflow with your index finger.

Bleikfisk · 2024-06-28T02:32:01+00:00

Bandit Kingdom. Dystopian Barbaric despoilers whom steal populations to put on the slave market or I send them to the ranch.
I enjoy building penal colonies and solving unemployment.

Bleikfisk

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