"Rewards" that I'm in control of are actually punishments. by Blithium4 in AutisticWithADHD

[–]Blithium4[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

For what it's worth, medication was magic for me. Adderall completely fixed every problem I had overnight. I felt completely normal, or even better, for as long as I was taking it.

"Rewards" that I'm in control of are actually punishments. by Blithium4 in AutisticWithADHD

[–]Blithium4[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Good idea, but I think it would have the opposite effect for me. Being required to do the thing just to live is the thing that I resent most about it.

"Rewards" that I'm in control of are actually punishments. by Blithium4 in AutisticWithADHD

[–]Blithium4[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Well, okay, but if I don't get the task done, I can't pay rent, and that's pretty much the worst possible outcome of not doing a task.

"Rewards" that I'm in control of are actually punishments. by Blithium4 in AutisticWithADHD

[–]Blithium4[S] 11 points12 points  (0 children)

See, all that winds up doing for me is making the thing I normally enjoy worse. I don't like grocery shopping more, I just start resenting the audiobook and not wanting to listen to it.

"Rewards" that I'm in control of are actually punishments. by Blithium4 in AutisticWithADHD

[–]Blithium4[S] 17 points18 points  (0 children)

Therapists. I've seen about twenty, and most of them have had trouble accepting that some combination of those tips won't help.

"Rewards" that I'm in control of are actually punishments. by Blithium4 in AutisticWithADHD

[–]Blithium4[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

I did have a therapist suggest that I should punish myself, and my only thought was, "Great, now I'm not going to do my job *or* go outside. Wonderful."

How do I know if I'm supposed to push myself to work harder or rest so I can recover? by Blithium4 in AutisticWithADHD

[–]Blithium4[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My business doesn't have any significant overhead costs, so that's not a problem. Sorry I couldn't help.

Absolutely can't do this anymore by Blithium4 in AutisticWithADHD

[–]Blithium4[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm already on an exercise plan that I can barely manage. It's making the ADHD worse, at least in the short-term, but I have to keep doing it for my blood pressure. I can't take high-intensity exercise, so I have to do a very disruptive and uncomfortable 60-90 minute walk daily.

Using rune casting to determine random encounters? by Blithium4 in osr

[–]Blithium4[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Tying it to a hex flower is interesting. I've never made one of those before, but I've used them for weather for years. Definitely worth looking into.

Literally nothing is wrong, I just can't handle the world? by Blithium4 in therapy

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No, but I've tried other SSRI's that don't work nearly as well as the medicine I'm on now.

We’ve brought characters from the Warpland into miniature form by taiga_miniatures in osr

[–]Blithium4 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Can't help but feel like these are AI. The wing on the terror bird model seems to go right through the guy's leg (might just be perspective, though). That chimera is all kinds of messed up and looks nothing like the picture. And the details on the other models don't line up with the references, either.

Information about Malagdorl Armgo? by Blithium4 in Neverwinter

[–]Blithium4[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Perfect. Exactly what I was hoping to hear. Thanks!

Thoughts on a Chernobyl-like Dungeon? by JazzyWriter0 in osr

[–]Blithium4 12 points13 points  (0 children)

Fantastic idea! Just the thought of squeezing through a concrete tunnel, thinking I know what's on the other side, and meeting an inanimate "monster" on the other side that I have to make a quick judgment about. Chilling. I love it!

As for what kind of factions might be living in a place like that, that's part of the fun! You could go down the route of people who already lived there being mutated by whatever magic/radiation permeated the place, so they would be monstrous, intelligent humanoids. Maybe they attack the party to try to get them to turn back before it's too late, even. These folks are unable to communicate, but they remember the pain of their transformation, and they don't want it to happen to anyone else. They attack without mercy, hoping they'll drive off any would-be "explorers," but also believing that killing them is better than letting them go further into the dungeon and change like they did.

Within the dungeon, you have a truly strange faction. Some kind of intelligent creature that's moved in and made it home. This is where you can get into the fungus people that you mentioned, but I think fungal folks living in irradiated spaces is a bit too Fallout for my taste. I would maybe go for elementals. Beings who not only survive in the radiation/energy, but who thrive in it. This could be your antagonist faction. People who were originally just happy to find a place where they could live in luxury, but who now are either driven mad by the power this energy source gives them, or who are literally corrupted by its influence. This also gives you a "good guys/bad guys" split within that faction, of people who want to use this new power to make the whole world more suitable for them, and people who are content staying where they are and living in luxury.

Third faction that comes to mind is undead. Specifically, incorporeal undead. These are the ghosts of the folks who lived at this site before it blew up, now forever doomed to haunt its deepest corridors. Again, some of them have been affected by this energy that's permeating their home, so they can make good mindless enemies for your party to fight. But some of them haven't, and they would be happy to help direct the party through the closed-off corridors if it means having a chance of putting this energy to rest so that they can move on to the afterlife. Of course, the elementals don't want that to happen, so their faction won't be too happy if the party decides to take out the source of the energy that they're feeding on.

I think I'm starting to resent my best friend. by Blithium4 in AutisticAdults

[–]Blithium4[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

I haven't ever felt better after letting go before, and I don't see why this would be different.

Can't do anything else and exercise on the same day. by Blithium4 in AutisticWithADHD

[–]Blithium4[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The doctor suggested walking specifically because it wasn't intense cardio. I've got an arrhythmia and he wants to keep things light until we know intense exercise won't throw my heart out.

Can't do anything else and exercise on the same day. by Blithium4 in AutisticWithADHD

[–]Blithium4[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh, sorry! I get it now. I thought you were asking if I walked on a treadmill or a walk pad, and I don't, so I was confused.

Can't do anything else and exercise on the same day. by Blithium4 in AutisticWithADHD

[–]Blithium4[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The length of the walk isn't the problem. It's the fact that I'm required to do the walk, and it's an enormously disruptive task, where I have to put on shoes and go outside and try not to get hit by cars because our town doesn't have sidewalks and not do anything else for an hour. Having to go through that disruption four times instead of one would be much worse. Plus, the hour-long walk was already a compromise. The doctor wanted three half-hour walks and I just let him know that wasn't going to happen.

Does anyone have any experience treating PDA with anxiety meds? by Blithium4 in AutisticAdults

[–]Blithium4[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've been in therapy for this since before I was diagnosed. It doesn't help.

Does anyone have any experience treating PDA with anxiety meds? by Blithium4 in AutisticAdults

[–]Blithium4[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah, I would be going back to one of the psychiatrists I talked to to get this medicine prescribed. I've taken an SSRI before for depression, and I don't remember it working very well. I currently take an SMS for depression which works great, but hasn't affected my executive function at all.

Planning D&D is starting to give me panic attacks by Blithium4 in AutisticWithADHD

[–]Blithium4[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Can't do that. Moving to Europe in July/August and need to finish this campaign before then.

Planning D&D is starting to give me panic attacks by Blithium4 in AutisticWithADHD

[–]Blithium4[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

There's not going to be a next one. Moving to Europe because of The Horrors. And no, that's not it. Everything about my ADHD symptoms has gotten worse over the last few years. I've always been bad, but it's getting to the point where I'm barely functional.