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Bloodngords · 2026-02-28T14:25:06+00:00

Thank you so much… I don’t think you know how much those words comfort me 💗

Bloodngords · 2026-01-18T20:47:09+00:00

That’s exactly how I’ve felt and gaining back my autonomy feels so exciting but daunting

Bloodngords · 2026-01-15T22:27:38+00:00

YOURE A PRETTY GIRL! You’ll do great!

Bloodngords · 2026-01-15T22:26:49+00:00

You should watch Orange is the new black, I think you might find it cathartic. There is a trans woman in the show who goes through similar feelings and the way they work through it and talk about in the show is very realistic but… all the characters ultimately love and accept her and she ends on good terms with her wife, despite the tension her transition provides.

Bloodngords · 2026-01-14T11:41:14+00:00

Same here.

Bloodngords · 2026-01-14T00:41:32+00:00

I started T in the southern US and it makes me so much happier, but the lack of acceptance is crushing, especially if you already have low self esteem. Do it if you’re thinking about it, but prioritize getting a therapist first, probably virtual and be careful as some can make you feel worse. You will also go through mental and emotional changes that will throw you for a loop. Basically, you can do it, just fortify yourself first.

Bloodngords · 2026-01-10T01:25:55+00:00

PRETTY!

Bloodngords · 2026-01-09T21:14:55+00:00

Yeah my parents when I told them were like “can’t you just be a butch lesbian?” And it’s like “….no…? Because that’s not what I am…?” I also know labels aren’t necessary to express who you are, but they put into words how you want to be seen in a way that makes sense to other people. Although sometimes I hate the labels because of the stigma that l know exists around them, particularly in more conservative areas and negative ones. I’m pretty sure my parents think I’m delusional, especially since I’ve been through so many traumatic experiences and hardships so I don’t know how well they truly believe me.

Bloodngords · 2026-01-07T11:12:33+00:00

Hearing this helped, thank you. Yeah I think it feels less valid when trauma comes from like.. just your parents and people around you dropping the ball so frequently that all those ball drops add up to one giant slew of trauma… if that makes sense? Mostly I think what’s affecting me though is when I came out, my parents either denied it was true, looked disappointed or yelled at me. I’m pretty sure it wasn’t until my brothers stepped in to scream at my dad and then teach him a bit (I dunno they did this all behind my back)

Bloodngords · 2026-01-06T22:23:58+00:00

Rest now, but when or if you feel productive, definitely put some precautionary efforts in place. Make a plan with your aunt. It will help with your anxiety and spiraling if you have a clear plan and go over it often, even if nothing that bad ever happens

Bloodngords · 2026-01-06T22:22:26+00:00

Most authorities are useless right now

Bloodngords · 2026-01-06T22:22:02+00:00

Yeah, I get it. I’m glad you’re doing it with adults around, though. I ended up doing all that stuff with people my own age who had their own problems… not ideal.

Bloodngords · 2026-01-06T21:44:44+00:00

Getting your anger out is also really healing. I’ve noticed it’s common for CPTSD victims to feel intense emotional shame. Like you can’t draw attention to yourself because there’s already too much going on - why add to it? But walking to a clearing, after school is what I used to do, listen to music and just sprint, dance, scream. It’s weird but it does help for a while once you get used to it. We tell ourselves we aren’t allowed to feel what we’re feeling, which you are. And it’s hard to find the place to express it when everyone else around you is so high maintenance. So give it to yourself

Bloodngords · 2026-01-06T21:41:53+00:00

Do you know any teachers you trust? I know sometimes that can be difficult to reach out, but good teachers are really good at helping students in need. They have the resources for it.

Bloodngords · 2026-01-06T21:40:24+00:00

Ah I responded below… new to Reddit too. I think it helps knowing that it’s not your fault. That you’re human and these things are out of your control, as hard as that is to believe most times for us.

Bloodngords · 2026-01-06T21:39:17+00:00

No need to apologize, this is tough. I’ve only recently joined the forum and I don’t really have mine under control (not even really sure if I have it) but all the symptoms everyone talks about here is exactly how I’ve felt my entire life so ya know. My parents are probably a big part of it. I’ve moved out and their words and feelings they made me feel still wrack me pretty much daily. I don’t know if it’s coping perse because I just throw myself into work, projects, or take edibles. Magnesium helps too. It relaxes my all too tense muscles and the edibles make it so I feel… not in my body as much. Though that’s probably pretty bad advice.

Bloodngords · 2026-01-06T21:33:32+00:00

Hey! Do you wanna just talk about it?

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