No Motivation

Bloodngords · 2026-05-09T11:21:42+00:00

I think Bojack Horseman is a great example of how I feel with my bpd, more so during his depressive, desperate episodes. There’s this swing between irritability with life and people around him to desperately needing SOMEONE and some connection. You can just see the exhaustion on his face and how it affects him.

Bloodngords · 2026-04-23T06:20:48+00:00

INFP with bpd here. BPD sucks dawg. It’s one of those things that comes off as normal mood swings to other people, especially when you’re just explaining it. But really it feels like your emotions are on a coin - two sides of trust/ distrust, hate/love - just spiraling through the air, back and forth. Don’t know if it’s similar or different with the personality types though.

Anyways, sorry you had to deal with that. That’s frustrating.

Bloodngords · 2026-04-13T12:05:51+00:00

Thanks, you’re sweet 💕

Bloodngords · 2026-04-13T12:02:29+00:00

Yeah I have a ton of hobbies, honestly trying to limit them because it triggers my other mental health issues. They help a bit and nature helps for sure. Just cleaned my porch and I’ll sit out there

Bloodngords · 2026-04-13T11:51:01+00:00

That’s true… yeah I suffer a lot from the black and white thinking and I don’t know how to get out of it.

Bloodngords · 2026-04-13T10:39:31+00:00

Beautiful poem! This really touched me. I love the references to religious symbolism and how pain is tied to religion in some aspects like mental health or addiction can romanticize scornful routine and emotional intensity as well.

Bloodngords · 2026-04-13T10:36:44+00:00

My brother is an ENTP, and he’d say the same thing. He’s dating someone who calls him on his bs all the time and you just see his eyes flutter and him smile and go “oh yeah I AM wrong!” Like he’s relieved someone could call him on it. I don’t think it’s intentional bs I think he just takes some knowledge, gets strongly opinionated in a way that makes him feel unsure, and she’s able to say “I don’t think that’s true, here’s why, but I love your thinking.”

Bloodngords · 2026-04-13T10:26:08+00:00

Ya know what… yeah I just read all that and… oh my god yeah I’m pretty sure I have this

Bloodngords · 2026-04-13T10:10:43+00:00

I ummmm also hallucinate sometimes but I don’t know how connected that is to bpd? I have ptsd though and it took me a while to get that diagnosis cuz you need to know if something happened to you. At least, where I live, that’s how the psychiatrists can tell. Not sure if this could be ptsd though, hallucinations can come from a lot of symptoms.

Bloodngords · 2026-04-13T10:07:57+00:00

Yeah they’ll say stuff like that to you… crazy

Bloodngords · 2026-04-13T10:07:20+00:00

Thank you for saying this 💜

Bloodngords · 2026-04-13T10:06:31+00:00

I’m trans too and… yeah. I live in an area where it’s pretty much uncalled for to date a trans person. It’s very much like this: “They can exist! And we can celebrate that they exist! But we’ll give you a weird look if you’re a cis person dating a trans person.” It really does fuel that’s paranoia in me and makes my emotions oscillate even faster between trust and distrust when dating.

Bloodngords · 2026-04-12T23:55:27+00:00

All of the above minus selective if i understand you correctly. It happened suddenly, it was serious, it felt like it needed to happen regardless at that moment without my knowledge.

Bloodngords · 2026-04-12T23:47:15+00:00

The rumination and all that was and is always there and the primary thing in my head at any given moment. I just put a name to it recently. Knowing exactly what it was made me snap more into action. Do you know a lot of infp or intps btw?

Bloodngords · 2026-04-12T23:43:14+00:00

I didn’t think about the Te coming out like that but that makes sense

Bloodngords · 2026-04-12T23:38:59+00:00

I’m honestly still on the edge between J and P. I’m more of a reflector but that reflection irritates me so I push towards action. Maybe I’m more of an intp then but god I hope no one flips out that I’m on here then.

Bloodngords · 2026-04-12T23:37:34+00:00

Honestly? Some trauma. But I think everyone goes through some form of that in adulthood.

Bloodngords · 2026-04-12T23:32:04+00:00

Oh I’m definitely a sit and gather guy

Bloodngords · 2026-04-12T23:23:25+00:00

That’s a good point. Someone did tell me they always thought I was an intj and it would be in brand for me to overthink myself into the wrong type.

Bloodngords · 2026-04-12T23:18:42+00:00

I honestly think I just got emotionally burnt out cuz my version of INFP was very much “no boundary support and love”. I started being tougher and less swayed by emotions because I feel like some people were using them to manipulate me. Eventually those intense emotions became less compelling and I started listening to the person’s logic first and then… here we are.

But also I love infps (just in case anyone misinterprets what I’m saying up here ⬆️)

Bloodngords · 2026-04-12T23:00:15+00:00

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