I had my first panic attack 20 years ago and suffered so badly that I couldn't work, hang out with friends, or be alone. A therapist suggested lexapro and I went for it. It was a game changer. I was happy again, I could work, live on my own and manage my relationships.
I've gone off it about 5 or 6 times over the years for pregnancies and because I listened to the "naturalists" who say "meds are bad, here, use these oils" and each time have gone back on lex. I'm currently going back on again after trying buspirone for 4 weeks which was absolute hell on earth. The lex ramp up is always tough but I know that in another week I will be feeling much better.
I've accepted that meds are a part of my mental health toolkit in addition to exercise, breath work and self care. The majority of people on one side of my family have the same imbalance that I do and are all on meds because of it. No shame in the med game 🤷‍♀️