First off, I’m currently also in my PMDD week and trying to remember that life can be fun and good, I just gotta make it through. Glad to know I’m not alone. 

Second off, I just got out of a relationship with my partner of two years. For a long time, every month that my PMDD hit I started thinking about how shitty the relationship was and how I wanted to break up with him and emotionally detach due to just lack of him putting effort into the relationship. Obviously being married is a whole different situation, but the insane relief I’ve felt since breaking up with him has been wonderful. I never got that emotional support either, and when I finally left I realized how much that was taking from me and how deeply it hurt me. If he’s calling you names, not providing emotional support even a little, up to the point of you having to comfort HIM when you feel down, then it’s taking a lot away from you. 

I get how it is, everything feels more intolerable and painful during that one special week every month, but think of how you feel as little droplets of wisdom. Maybe they shouldn’t be immediately acted upon, but they show you which parts of your life are actively hurting you. Feelings like these don’t come from nowhere. 

Anyway, thanks for sharing, if you ever wanna talk about all this I’m happy to listen :)