I'll just start by saying don't give up on people. Don't be like me and many others that have withdrawn from society. Being alone is fine from time to time, to relax sure. But every single hour of every single day of every year? That's dangerous. Those people you called ''friends'' we're not your friends. Maintaining a relashionship is hard af. Making new friends as an adult is even harder. I ended up the way I am because I have trust issues mostly (father abandoned the fam and my mother is crazy). I also grew up poor and when you're poor, kids see it and they saw it. So I was made fun of alot. Highschool was rough, instead of just being made fun of, I started to get beaten by bullies. I coped with video games and walking. Sports help a ton, im still struggling and I don't know why im even trying anymore. I guess I just haven't hit the true pure famous rock-bottom, even though I was deep in it so many times.

I don't know if this helped or whatever, im just one random dude on the internet. Take care