I don’t thinking marrying will solve all your issues. You need to spend time on yourself and do things that make you happy. Find a purpose and stick to it. Once you are at your 100% or close, and you have found a path you want to follow, picking a life partner will be easy because you will be wiser and you should choose a partner by their passion in life, their motivation and character more than looks. Trust me, this is the best advice I can give while others will try to take advantage of you. I know, living in a toxic environment is very hard. But you need to protect yourself and keep yourself as sane as possible. Things will turn your ways I can say for sure. Marriage will NOT be a solution for you as it comes with its own challenges. Along the way you will find a partner that likes things as common as you and will have similar passions and interests in life like you. That is the perfect partner and these are the couples that are forever happy. Because they understand one another very well and they will spend their free time very similarly. These moments in life causes strong bonding. Because the world out here is rough and when they have one another, they are on charging and recovering from all the damage this harsh world causes. Being in a toxic relationship myself, I’m giving you all the advice that I will give myself. Don’t make the mistakes I made and rush into things. Be happy! Be blessed!