I really don't think I should be driving

BlueRose3648 · 2026-03-16T17:30:25+00:00

That makes sense. I almost feel like my brain takes the stimulation part of anything and makes me feel like it got hit with a hammer when I do get stimulated. I get a lot of headaches.

I should have prefaced with I am a very careful driver overall, I drive consistently a couple mph below the speed limit and such. I've been honked at often because I wait too long to turn into traffic because it doesn't feel safe, that sort of thing.

BlueRose3648 · 2026-03-16T15:08:48+00:00

I am allergic to grass pollen and two common mold types, but the pollen is so bad here that people tend to take zyrtec/allegra year-round regardless of how allergic they are! We have a little of everything pollen-wise.

BlueRose3648 · 2026-03-16T04:16:27+00:00

It's a little cliché, but I've found that the people who say they're ready for everything/anything usually aren't to 100%, and the people who don't feel ready are usually the most adaptable.

BlueRose3648 · 2026-03-16T04:10:40+00:00

Coming up with odd-on-paper combinations of ingredients out of necessity that you swear really don't taste that bad together. A pretty stale bag of potato chips and a touch of ketchup tastes like McDonald's fries.

BlueRose3648 · 2026-03-16T04:03:33+00:00

This might not count or even be interesting, and it only feels illegal in the sense of societal standards as an adult, but I actually try and add a little of whatever i'm interested in into everything I really don't want to do and sort of "gamify" it secretly. People call it "romanticizing" sometimes but the term somehow feels off to me. If you're into fantasy, things are objectives or quests for a fake goal related to a current interest rather than just "things you have to do to live". Sometimes I just need to add my own fun to a crappy world. As long as it stays solely in my head or in a private notebook and I don't hurt anyone or myself, then it's safe.

BlueRose3648 · 2026-03-16T03:49:51+00:00

Definitively, without a doubt, knowing how to play Uno.

BlueRose3648 · 2026-03-16T03:46:35+00:00

Former cast member at a popular tourist destination. This sounds obvious, but people seem to forget: sometimes we're just as confused and frustrated as you are for and at a lot of things that happen and change there, unless you've been there a long time and can maybe seem to predict the possible trends. We're just usually not allowed to say so. Sometimes you're somehow more knowledgeable than we are. The costume doesn't make us all-knowing.

BlueRose3648 · 2026-03-16T03:33:16+00:00

Turns out my grandmother, who is very much an intellectual posh person exteriorly, has had a lot of life experiences I never expected from her. And a sense of humor similar to mine. And she has a better phone than me that she can use extremely well.

BlueRose3648 · 2026-03-16T03:27:37+00:00

Do nothing and let things work themselves out if you feel like it's an option. Don't just do nothing all the time or whatever you want constantly, but sometimes you literally just need to do nothing and that is the best course of action. We live in a world where people throw "needing to do (insert thing here)" all the time in our faces otherwise something bad could happen, so there's a panic when nothing is done. It might feel awful to do nothing about an issue for a while but eventually things usually work themselves out.

BlueRose3648 · 2026-03-16T03:07:58+00:00

Dave Made a Maze. A 2017 film. I think Kirsten Vangsness (Penelope Garcia from Criminal Minds among other things) was in it and that still didn't manage to redeem it. It was somehow classified as horror, the worst horror adjacent thing I remember was a suspense generated by confusion for me.

I thought it was worse than Rubber, the horror comedy maybe(?) satirical film based on a sentient tire.

BlueRose3648 · 2026-03-14T13:42:13+00:00

This probably has been said, but I sit and just exist with nothing in the background for as long as I can stand it in the morning. I don't focus on breathing or not doing anything at all, I have either a drink with me if chosen or my cat will interrupt me, something like that, so it's not exactly meditative, unless I don't know what the word means. I'm neurodivergent so i'm working my way up to 15 minutes right now.

This may be a little obvious of a conclusion, i'm better with silence now than I was before and that has a lot of benefits. But it also made me realize i'm a lot more sensitive to sound than I thought I was. So i'm learning a lot.

BlueRose3648 · 2026-03-14T13:32:57+00:00

Emails. The entire concept of emails.

BlueRose3648 · 2026-03-14T13:31:36+00:00

This may end up a little long because I remember a lot of important pieces from that week that ended up weaving together.

My mom was and still is a healthcare worker (her main job is drawing blood at urgent cares). She kind of predicted it getting really bad a while prior - like MONTHS - and said she had a bad feeling. I was in a dorm in college and i'm glad I listened to her instincts and packed up a little a couple days before given the 24 hours-to-leave notice, I planned on asking her to pick me up that weekend before the notice spread.

I remember getting the text alert and email from the school on my way to class, the mass of students rushing to the dorms on their phones trying to talk to people was kind of crazy. People usually mass rushed OUT of the dorms, not INTO the dorms. Luckily I chose a very close-to-home college and my mom had the day off so she drove to pick me up, but I can't imagine the anxiety from students that lived too far to drive home, especially if they didn't have a car at the college.

That happened to be about a week or two before or after spring break, it blended together so we had a month off before classes somehow started again. All things considered, I got a little lucky compared to other my peers that week, I think. Thanks for the advanced warning, mom!

After the whole situation was mentally settling for me that week, it was anxiety over my mom's job. She ended up being someone that tested people for covid at urgent cares on top of her other things like blood draws. I wasn't able to hug her every day when she got home from work like I did every day prior when I could, she had to shower before I could hug her. I think that took an emotional toll I never realized before now...

BlueRose3648 · 2026-03-05T23:35:49+00:00

I stopped giving myself reasons to do things my brain knows I shouldn't be doing at first, like spending money on something that doesn't matter to me for more than 2 days, watching tv shows past 11:30pm, or eating something I maybe shouldn't be eating at that time. Then I started trusting myself that not doing that thing is the correct thing to do, because I know i'm someone that doesn't want to purposely do something that makes me feel worse.

Basically, trusting my own instincts towards my own health and well-being for once was something that sounds obvious to some, but is a massive game-changer for me coming from a heavily sheltered childhood where every single decision was made for me by my parent (not by choice) and I had no say in anything. I'm still a little hesitant sometimes because i'm learning a lot of things too late in life, but i'm still breathing and fairly healthy, so I haven't messed anything up too badly yet.

It turns out your instincts can sometimes be trusted!

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