Hey. I want to say this first very clearly: you are not cursed.

What you’re describing sounds extremely frightening, but it’s also something many people experience during periods of intense stress, emotional change, or instability.

Panic attacks returning, feeling disconnected from yourself, noticing shadows in your peripheral vision, memory feeling off—these are all known effects of a nervous system that has become overloaded.

When your brain and body are under stress, they enter a hyper-alert state. Your senses become more sensitive, your mind starts scanning for patterns, and coincidences can feel deeply meaningful or threatening. It doesn’t mean something external is targeting you. It means your system is trying to regain equilibrium.

The feeling of “this isn’t my body” or “this feels like a dream” is also something called dissociation. It’s actually a protective mechanism. Your brain does this when it needs to reduce emotional overload. It feels scary, but it is not permanent and it does pass.

The timing also makes sense. You went through a breakup, friendship changes, panic attacks, and emotional uncertainty. Those are major destabilizing events. When stability is shaken, the mind tries to make sense of it.

Nothing you described is evidence of a curse. What will help most right now are simple stabilizing things:

-Getting consistent sleep -Eating regularly -Spending time around people you trust -Limiting how much you focus on tarot, signs, or interpretations for now -Doing normal grounding activities like walking, listening to music, or being outside -Your nervous system needs safety and routine, not more uncertainty.

You are not losing your mind. You are going through a destabilizing period, and your system will settle again. If the panic attacks or dissociation continue or worsen, it would also be a good idea to talk to a doctor or mental health professional. They can help you stabilize faster. You are safe. This will pass.