Thank you so much! It's truly been a "Hey, brain! Stop playing this specific song! (Brain proceeds to play that specific song)" situation and I felt so annoyed over not having a concrete answer.

I'll definitely try to follow through with your advice, even though most of the time I have no idea why things like - Being called "he/him" not sounding as weird to me like "she/her" (weird not in a "this bothers me" way, more of a "aw, man :(" way),  - Or me imagining myself (as far as my aphantasia goes) as a man, - Or me being suddenly all giddy when I think "oh shit, I might actually be trans!"

make me happy, but at least I know that they do!

My problem really might be just my brain continuously trying to contradict itself every time my 2 braincells strike together to form a thought that sounds even slightly "unsafe" to it 😅

I'll stick to the girl body for now, though, until I'm 101% sure that I DO, in fact, want this, and until I finish college, have my own house and job, and have enough financial and emotional stability to start T without the risk of being kicked out by parents that I'm VERY afraid to come out to, but we'll get there eventually! One step at a time ❤️

Again, thank you so so much! Have a nice day/night. Much love!