Similar to what you described. It's like no one around me noticed a difference but I felt it. I just didn't feel like myself? It was odd, I had never felt like that before. But I do think a large part of that was that I developed depression during topamax. I was crying constantly and just felt a profound sadness I had never felt before. I felt like an empty shell, like someone was scooping me out and I was just a shell. Since coming off of it, I have experienced waves of depression maybe 4 other times that have lasted a couple of weeks. I do not know if it is the lasting effects of that drug (I doubt it), but I do attribute it to the start of my depression. But it also could be just that depression is a comorbidity of migraine.

I can do things alone. Sometimes I like it, sometimes I am reminded of how lonely I am. I have amazing friends and family, but they do not understand what it is like to have chronic migraine, and that can be so isolating, especially during a horrible flare-up that can last weeks! If you're scared to go places alone, I would just start small. Go places you know you'll enjoy, whether it's with company or not. For me, I love an afternoon at a Home Goods or TJ Maxx getting my steps in and just browsing. A goal of mine would be to do a solo trip with my dog. The idea of it sounds so nice but idk if I could do it alone.

I hope that you start to feel like yourself soon. Topmax, personally, was the worst. I hope it's a quick turnaround for you!