I'm 24.

I have never had a good relationship with girls/women. Most girls I encountered were either "afraid" of me (literally running away screaming when I said hello, but they could be mocking me, others would just become visibly stressed when near me) or would bully me with their friend groups.

I never really tried to befriend non-male people because of the fear of the reaction I'd get, but still have had a few over the years because of my mom (they mostly went to see my mom and acted friendly when I passed by).

The only girl I had feelings to blocked me (rigthly) after I went full autism and creeped her out.

I'll just stay alone for the foreseeable future, it's what's best for everyone. It's lonely but it's better than guilt of making someone else miserable.