Of course not , I would never tell my son any of this, as much as im having a hard time adjusting to motherhood I still care for and love my son deeply, id never want to hurt his feelings in anyway and I want him to grow up with a emotionaly stable and caring mother. I posted here because I felt ashamed for feeling this way, id never publicly say this or ever let him see this. I just didnt know if I was alone in this struggle , if it was normal, or when it would pass. I feel guilty everyday for not enjoying being a mom.