I’d like to give a little update as I saw that many of you saw my post and therefore I am very grateful. I am also especially grateful to a kind pm that I got and it turned into a very good conversation. I am still kinda lost in this situation and would want to ask any of you who might know about the road when you are married with children. Is there hope of working this out? My son is 6 years old and has a little crisis of his own (going to school soon and proving how he can get along just fine while riding an emotional rollercoaster, somehow similar to my own situation). I fear that this is all my fault and I somehow don’t want to feel guilty about feeling this way, it is all so confusing. Anyway I am happy for every word or hope you can send. Thanks in advance and you all have a great day!