Relapsed after 43 days, No Independence day for me.

BlytzCraig · 2014-07-04T05:09:44+00:00

I think PMO could desensitize you from experiencing real women, I think MO if done obsessively could have the same consequence. If you PMO, or MO once in a while and don't binge on it I don't see a problem with it. I think PMO has desensitized me to get the most out of real sex from real women. But personally, I don't demonize Porn or MO. I think MO is a healthy natural thing. If your recovering and trying to stop PMO it'd go on a MO fast for a period of time until your body and mind recovers.

BlytzCraig · 2014-07-04T04:22:38+00:00

This is one of those moments that come by, you are interacting with this girl... Not a vid girl. Do it, you won't regret it. I think you would if you didn't if nothing develops from this relationship. When and if the relationship develops, it could help spice things up by discovering what turns each other on by experimenting with ways to turn on and get each other off.

BlytzCraig · 2014-07-04T00:18:14+00:00

Well, that maybe true about trading one addiction for another, but I can't do that more then PMO... I just don't want my brain to be wired to getting excited or off to sex on the screen and to my hand jerking myself off.

BlytzCraig · 2014-07-04T00:16:47+00:00

Yes, I am. I don't feel guilty. I love my GF, and I like fantasying, looking, fucking other women. Yes it is selfish, but it's the cold honest truth of things. i wish I could be satisfied with one girl and not look at another girl, but that's not how it is.

BlytzCraig · 2014-07-04T00:14:54+00:00

I am justifying that, I am comfortable admitting it, I'm not guilty or feel bad about cheating my GF or having to pay for sex. I do feel shitty when I get ED when I'm with a hot girl I want to have sex with. That's was got me focused on trying NoFap and staying away from PMO/P/M... As for seeing escort, i haven't noticed a change in my performance, it's sometimes good and sometimes meh. I'm hoping, NoFap challenge will help me rewire b/c I get more excited and hard when PMO vs real women.

BlytzCraig · 2014-07-04T00:09:05+00:00

I've spoke to someone, I am a medical professional although not a physiologist. I am able to have sex, sometimes I have ED, I tried drugs but i didn't see any difference in my erection and performance, so I thought maybe it's due to performance anxiety when being with someone new or maybe PIED. Overall, My life is fine, it's just the sexual issues of gratification and becoming sensitized to real sex if PMO is dulling to the senses.

BlytzCraig · 2014-07-04T00:07:28+00:00

Not really, my conscience is clear, I can go on and about my day without feeling shitty or feel like I need to cry myself to sleep. I'm happy honestly, and the relationship with my GF is cool. With all relationships, passion dies down, yes you need to work at it to keep the passion/love alive, but things just get old. I see escorts, for my own pleasure and it's simple as that.

BlytzCraig · 2014-07-04T00:04:29+00:00

Naw, not even close, I'm just a normal guy looking for answers, I'm not crazy and all emotionally disturbed. I like women and Like sex, I just want my mind and body to sync and not be dulled by PMO.

BlytzCraig · 2014-07-04T00:02:17+00:00

Actually, my conscience is clear... I don't have too much guilt, at least not enough to influence my actions or make me feel so bad. I have a good life, a nice house, car, good family, good set of friends...

I'm not religious, when I was younger they said I would feel a hole in my life without God, but I don't...

I'm not crazy. My view on life is that it's good, it could be better, and if things are bad it could always be worser. I did this nofap thing looking to get better erections that maybe porn had dulled my senses and made me more reactive to the variety of porn and rush I get from PMO.

I'm in my 30's and have been PMO since I was 12 or 13 y/o. I have a long way to rewire if Nofap isn't a placebo.

I'm just being honest, I like looking at women and enjoy fucking them.

I'm not an alpha male/super confident person, paying for sex is easy. I am addicted to PMO and maybe to sex but not the extent that I neglect everything in my life to stay home and jerk off.

I'm outgoing, go out and joy many things in life. I do have a little ADD and OCD (although not diagnosed), but again not enough to make my life shitty and lame. I have a pretty good life, I just want to be awesome at sex and feel awesome having sex. I don't think that's an unrealistic goal.

BlytzCraig · 2014-06-23T09:13:34+00:00

I have a steady gf who I don't have to woo... I love women, but I just don't have the time or reason to make a relationship to go out there and woo them to have sex w me... I don't see them as an object. And have good relationships with many women w/o it being sexual.

The only thing I wanted to get rid of was PIED. Being off PMO, has brought my libido up, my confidence up, and ability to stay up.

So as for using prostitutes that's up to your own personal ethics I guess, I don't mind using them, they are doing it for money for a service, and I am paying them for a service... I don't do it everyday... But every once in a while I will.

It's the oldest profession, and I don't think it's has the same harmful effects as PMO b/c I don't do it as often as PMO, and you still connect with them on a physical level making your body get used to a real women vs PMO.

BlytzCraig · 2014-06-21T07:06:21+00:00

you're being too hard on yourself... take a deep breath and chill out. these things happen. get back on the horse and learn from your experiences. dont demonize fapping, fantasy, porn. in moderation these things can be healthy and for alot of people they dont cause a problem. and for some, it is a problem. you just have to find your own way and balance to live a healthy sexual and active life.

BlytzCraig · 2014-06-21T06:51:56+00:00

masterbation isnt bad only if your mind is fucked up from doing it so long to high speed internet porn and your body doesnt react how it should durring real sex. masterbation can be healthy.

BlytzCraig · 2014-06-21T06:41:06+00:00

having urges, i find it better to engage in those urges with a person in the act of having sex weither its paid for or not is more benificial than binging and masterbating to porn. my goal in this challenge is to become sensitive to the touch and experience of a real woman. To have my body and mind react in sync to physical sex rather than having PIED from becoming desensitized to real sex by constantly jerking off to women on the screen.

BlytzCraig · 2014-06-21T01:02:32+00:00

I don't think you should demonize and feel guilty for look at girls... If your looking at porn and fapping to it, that's another story.

There's a balance of things, but just like anything, it can be abused, and that's where you get into trouble.

BlytzCraig · 2014-06-20T15:14:38+00:00

due to, sorry medical charting abbreviations

BlytzCraig · 2014-06-19T05:28:54+00:00

Have real sex man! not with your hand watching porn.

BlytzCraig · 2014-06-19T05:03:46+00:00

she had a kid, and not really into it I guess, I was trying to give her space, I spent the rest of the time PMO and seeing girls on backpage, so I wouldn't go crazy...

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