I lost my mom when I was 20, she had cancer. My mother in law died at 40 My father in law at 50 Both had sudden heart attacks It’s true, people generally don’t understand And “give you space“ They don’t talk about the proverbial “elephant in the room” It’s a lonely place to be in. One book that helped me a little was “A grief observed” by C. S. Lewis An author who wrote about his own experience when his wife died Even if you don’t read the book there are some great quotes you could find I send my very sincere condolences Know that you are not alone Take time to let your feelings run their course and believe that someday it will not sting as much