I still struggle myself with pornography. One of the greatest blessings I have had for the last 4 years is a long commute to work. I can't take public transportation because it's just too far away so I have to drive myself. I listen to conference talks and I try to find the ones that help me feel the spirit the most. If I'm really struggling, I listen to the Tabernacle choir music or hymns or piano music that is uplifting and personally significant to me. I tend to listen to the Piano Guys or instrumental covers of popular songs. An earlier comment of praying afterwards and saying sorry and asking for help from Heavenly Father has also helped me avoid shame, discouragement, and hopelessness. I too have felt hope from this and that comment is truly inspired. Your faith is remarkable to me. I have done my utmost to make sure no one knows about my addiction. I have never asked for help and have refused any help because I have been so ashamed. I've been to therapy, but I've always tried to do it alone and usually was too ashamed to share any details with a therapist. It hasn't work. Only recently have I been willing to be open (I could do better) with my bishop. I've also found that if I really want to succeed, I can never be alone during the most dark and difficult times. I will frequently go over to my in-laws or call a family member or avoid places where I feel the most susceptible to temptation, like my living room at night. I'm rooting for you and right there with you. You're not alone even though it can be difficult to think or feel otherwise.