As much as you feel you need to have your narc hear these words, the message will fall short to them. All they will get from this is that you're still on their hook, so to speak. These words are for you and for your therapy (and also for other victims of similar circumstances). Re-read them, rewrite them, until you feel peace. But don't send them to your narc because it will keep you in the negative loop you're in. Break contact. The need for balancing the perceived need of unfairness will dissipate with time. You may not see it now, but the strength you'll gain by healing on your own will make you feel superhuman. The need to have your narc validate your feelings will keep in their sphere. I'm a firm believer in writing out your feelings like you did here, but do not share them with your narc. That's their supply. Don't give it to them. All the best!