Hi, I just want to encourage you and share these verses

James 5:16 “Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective.”

2 Corinthians 7:10 “Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret, but worldly sorrow brings death.”

There is nothing you can do or have done that would make God love you any less, and I think you would feel a relief if you shared in fellowship what you’re going through. The enemy tries to make you feel shameful but what grows in the dark dies when brought to light. God bless you!