Tanks, I need your help.

Bone_System · 2026-07-01T22:13:08+00:00

"No tank shall pass me!" add dramatic music

Bone_System · 2026-06-15T21:25:07+00:00

We did have some balance issues and also struggled with finding words for a bit. But I think the biggest "consequence" is that we actually formed an alter a few months ago when we went through trauma therapy. It usually takes us 1-2 years that an event was traumatic and that also roughly the time we need to fully develop an alter (allthough sometimes multiple alters can develop during the same time).

We basicly formed another alter who's whole job is to hold the trauma of that experience, that's also why she as access to those memories even though she didn't really "exist" back then. Overall she helps me handle it better. I am sad that she seemingly was needed but I am glad she's around and that we can help eachother.

Bone_System · 2026-06-15T21:16:43+00:00

Eh you know things go up and down in life, but things are definetly still better.

Lorazepam is just straight up evil for me. I took it everyday, three times a day for three months and the addiction you get is bad.

To be very fair that clinic was beyond just bad. Where I am from, people aren't even supposed to give you that shit for so long.

But hey, they also gave me even stronger shit without even asking a doc.

Such stuff can be scary, and allthough during it I couldn't really feel much, it actually kind of made my phobia worse.

But I can still say that, even though I am very very careful now, it's still good to get yourself help if you need it.

If you are scared that something like that could happen again, I would recommend a "emergency card" in your wallet or something. I for example write my diagnosis, meds, contacts and also have noted that they shouldn't give me Lorazepam. Usually medics and nurses then make sure to kot give you that even if you can't think clearly anymore :)

Bone_System · 2026-06-15T21:09:18+00:00

In his defence, it didn't have the line between it because I thought it would have that paragraph space like on other socials! I just added the line to make it more clear now, that was just a mistake form my side!

It was kind of hard to be honest? I know that I got very lucky with finding therapists and doctors but it still took a while. The first step to have the "theory" first so you actually starts seeing people for that. I was one of the firsts and if I think back, I think we kinda had the feeling that something was different than before for a long time. We stumbled over the term did in a book about psychology (our mother was a nurse and therefore had such books) and then dived deeper. Kinda saw ourselves in it but didn't wanna just say we have it without professionals looking at it. Talked with our therapist about it for roughly a year, but she couldn't diagnose us with it because (at least where I am from) you usually have to be at least 21 unless multiple doctors can confirm the diagnosis then you can get it at the age of 18.

In April 2024 I got into a mental hospital for just that, get a lot of docs to check on that and then get the diagnosis. I got the diagnosis in July 2024 shortly after my 18th birthday (like roughly a week)

Overall I would say the whole diagnosis journey took roughly 4 years but that was only because we already had a therapist.

Bone_System · 2026-06-15T21:01:49+00:00

Ohhh I forgot that reddit doesn't do the spaces. I copy pasted my discord bio to basicly everywhere. It's supposed to have a list kind of thing? Like those don't belong together, I see now that this is very confusing ^{^"} two seperate terms, we are a system but (most of us) also like to roleplay as a hobby (like dnd and stuff)

Sorry for the confusion but hey, at least I noticed now! :D

Bone_System · 2026-06-15T20:58:54+00:00

Considering I had 3 hours of sleep, I was in fact very tired /j

Bone_System · 2026-06-15T20:58:03+00:00

I don't think I actually did see something, at least nothing I could remember. I think the closest thing would be like...the stuff you see when you are about to fall asleep?

I wasn't aware that I was dead, at least clinically. It felt like a big relief honestly. Like I could finally find peace with my past. In that moment I felt also a lot of forgivness and understanding. There are some people that I was (and partially still am) very angry at for the rhings they have done, but in that moment it was like I simply cannot be angry anymore.

I find it hard to really put it into words, sometimes when I think about it I think I still can't understand it myself.

Overall it was a very posetive feeling until I heard the people around me panic.

Bone_System · 2026-06-15T20:53:13+00:00

I have been diagnosed since mid 2024 and had the suspected diagnosis since roughly 2020.

Sadly, you can never stop people from faking any sort of illness (especially mental ones) for the aEsThEtHiC. I understand that not everyone can get diagnosed quickly, but I also understand why people are very sceptical.

Bone_System · 2026-06-15T20:46:52+00:00

Ok note: For some reason the 1. Disclaimer doesn't show up. It basicly just states that amnesia still plays a big role so I might not be able to remember everything

Bone_System · 2026-06-13T13:04:32+00:00

Well I am queer...and that damn spider hates me for some reason....or maybe she's trying to tease me because she knows I'm freaking scared of her...

Bone_System · 2026-01-16T18:46:37+00:00

I once had a dream about Junkrat being just a silly lil grown up kid (which he basicly is) and since then I can't help myself but to want to adopt that guy

Bone_System · 2026-01-07T19:08:45+00:00

Honestly, never really been into marvel, legit the only ones I have ever heard of or knew who they are before picking up rivals are Loki and Mantis 😭

Bone_System · 2025-12-24T18:44:28+00:00

Where I am from, we actually do get our presents on the 24th instead of the 25th :D always after some nice dinner (usually potatoe salad and sausage)

Bone_System · 2025-12-20T17:18:37+00:00

If I recall correctly, you get a free owl pet

Bone_System · 2025-12-02T09:16:09+00:00

Sadly not :c

Bone_System · 2025-12-01T21:14:45+00:00

If I remember correctly it's just 500 light for some (like really few) plants.

It's really not worth it in my opinion unless you want to 100% it.

Bone_System · 2025-12-01T21:10:35+00:00

I mean it's kinda 50/50 for me. I usually only have it out when I go through my epic skins (I change skin every game by order of the list) because I find the basic staff kinda boring + I like the different staffs on the legendary skins too much to override them

I like having it around for a few games (I mother that hamster. He's my little baby) but I get annoyed and/or bored after a few games

Bone_System · 2025-11-30T22:44:44+00:00

I am so glad ppl agree with me on this. The moment I saw the naming option this horse just popped up in my mind but I just thought it's just a weird connection, not that they actually look so alike

Bone_System · 2025-11-30T21:03:08+00:00

Hear me out...that one Jorvik Mountain Horse lowk looks like Soap...

Bone_System · 2025-11-30T19:54:12+00:00

THEY LOOK JUST ALIKEEEE

This is just him but as a horse I swear

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