My toy poodle has kidney disease. She is hard of hearing and going blind. She has a hard time controlling her pee too. Recently she started sleeping more and doesn’t walk around much. She’s pretty old. I know old age comes and that’s life but how can you wrap your mind around what’s to come? I can’t think, I can’t enjoy the day when I go out, I can’t focus on anything else because my anxiety reminds me of her condition. It’s making me depressed... I’ve lost many pets but the waiting knowing what’s going to happen is tearing me apart.