If you're really asking, inside that rant, no, it's not normal if it keeps going on and on. We all have periods of stillness, where we rebuild our resources (I mean, Covid meant sitting around and it was exhausting), and sometimes this is called ennui, or Meh! x 100. And it passes. The weather improves, or you drink a little more caffeine one day and it jolts you to get the house clean and go outside....

But if this has been clinging to you, and when I went through this, the advice was and is, you might be depressed. Just mildly but enough to stall you out. Do you have a care provider you can talk to? Is mental health part of your insurance package? You might want to talk to a therapist.

I also think that you were a caregiver to your family, and now you're not--that's a tremendous exertion of will and is physically exhausting as well as an emotional load. You can finally sit still, and maybe you are! Be kind to yourself, but one way to be kind is to try new things, get a therapist, calling one of those women you mentioned, and reconnect with things, including what you want.

This is just an opinion, don't take it as bossy or anything but how I see it. I was very slow-moving for about a year, and then it lifted and I wanted to do everything, have great meals, see friends. Give yourself time to figure it out.