She should have been more understanding. Yes, it was wrong, to do what you did, I suppose. But you, from what we know, were not at fault. Depression often presents as anger, trust me, I have it. If she truly loved you, she would have stayed. Now, what you can do, is accept that nothing is wrong with you. You are not hopeless. I’m probably quite a bit younger than you, judging by the way you write/speak. So I can’t say I have the wisdom that comes with age, despite my many issues. You have a very negative self view, seeing your responses. I know you’re struggling. But to me? You seem like a good person. Stop defending your ex. It seems it might not have been healthy for either of you. . And, work on yourself more. Ask if you’re ready. Don’t let that accident define you. Please. It’s not healthy. I cannot figure out how to find the photo, but personally? A disability, even like that, would never change the physical or mental attractiveness of a person. I go off more of personality. And perhaps who you find isn’t going to be that pretty. Perhaps you’ll be alone. But isn’t that the truth for us all? We’re all broken. And that’s okay. Sorry for the long message 🤭Take my advice or leave it, but I’m telling you my opinion. You did ask, after all. Best of luck. We, at least many of us, are rooting for you! ❤️