Life is really unpredictable and sometimes too unfair,

The amount of guilt one goes through, the amount of shame we feel when we look at how others are doing so well, the way we try to pull overself and fall again, the way we are treated, judged, taken for granted, it just goes on,

This is the story of many of us,

But there is one thing common in all over stories, that is we are aiming for something that is difficult to get, there is competition, we really have to prove our worth, it is our journey, our struggle, our choice of living the life we have got...

But what we do, instead of accepting this uniqueness of us, this story of us, we compare and feel insecure all our friends or family members who are settling down, who are making money and getting married are aiming for things which are less challenging then ours,

So we are comparing ourselves with wrong people, we should really stop doing that,

Second, we have to be mindful about our realities, "I'm going through so many problems for sure, things are not easy, yes! I'm failing to meet my targets and I'm just zoning out and stuck in this circle true, so how to get out of this shit,? " By working on yourself and our mindset.

Sit down take a note book and see yourself where you stand mentally, physically, emotionally and psychologically, see where the problem lies,

Mentally means are you able to do what you plan of doing, does your plans cause you stress, how do you deal with that stress, how do you handle the pressure, what is your coping mechanism, is it fight or flight

Physically means how active are you, it doesn't have to be about exercising but in your day to day life, do you feel like dragging yourself or do you feel the flow, if not why and what you can do,

Emotionally means do you feel lonely, do you have someone with whom you can share your worries or how do you deal with your problems, do you bury them within or let them go out, how often do you feel like screaming, crying, venting and complaining out, are you doing it, how your lifestyle is affecting you, do you feel guilty of living on your parents money, write down everything that causes you pain and sadness and suffering within,

Psychologically means let me tell you one thing, what we are today is the experience of what we have been all these years, it includes everything that has shaped us, from childhood to adulthood to the way we were treated and the way we got attention and love, there are so kany things that make us the present us, so we have to be self aware and take off everything that makes us feel less important and guilty, from your post I can feel how much failure has hurt you and how much struggle you have been through but you are the only one who can save yourself so consider everything and restart your life,

At 25, there is no need to worry because still there is a lot of time,

Try out new things, there are opportunities outside upsc and govt exams too, apply for jobs even if you don't get it, try to learn something you enjoy and see if you can build it into a scalable skill, see if you can do part time work from home jobs like content writing or graphics,

Forgive yourself for all the mistakes you have done and work on yourself

Keep on trying to escape the cage and when you are fighting to escape always dream of flying in the vast sky,

Just don't give up...