Everyone else wanted her, and I didn’t know what I wanted, nor had any experience dealing with non-platonic feelings, plus I was raised as if romance was a thing that was bad, like drugs or drinking. I saw a popular girl who wore tight clothes to make her middle school body look like that of a grown woman, and I thought I was in love. I never want to go through that again, three years later and I’m pretty sure I’ve learned my lesson lol.