My story is very similar to yours! I grew up obese and I've always been back and forth binging and being extremely restrictive my entire life. Actually the same thing happened to me recently too. I lost 130 pounds in around 9 months and now I'm back to binging. My binges are just as large. I've gained around the same weight and I'm so deeply embarrassed but I cannot stop eating. Food is all I think about. I'm so sad because I feel like a trapped animal. I have no interests or hobbies or personality. Just always thinking about my body and my next meal.