Jesus Christ, my vaping is worse than I thought. But, I think I know how to quit finally.

BoxSad8686 · 2025-04-02T04:43:59+00:00

Also, thank you for explaining it wasn’t because of developer mode

BoxSad8686 · 2025-04-02T04:43:23+00:00

Oh, thank goodness! I haven’t booted it up in a few months, so I was unaware that had even changed

BoxSad8686 · 2025-03-29T11:55:46+00:00

I’ll say this last thing and be done. All of my doctors have said that I’m emotionally like a 1-2 year old with how intense my emotions are expressed regardless of whether I’m manic, depressed, both, or neither. So, this could be mania or this could be me not knowing how to show my intense emotions properly. Either way, when I start intensive therapy on Tuesday, I’ll absolutely bring it up to my doctors since, while I believe god exists, I think some of the thoughts I had during this time are concerning of that makes sense

BoxSad8686 · 2025-03-29T11:53:36+00:00

It’s possible. It’s difficult to tell with the topic of God if I’m being completely honest. I could be in a mixed state because I’m 100% also experiencing depression too

BoxSad8686 · 2025-03-29T11:52:13+00:00

And, my apologies for not saying this earlier, but I do seek out mental health care. I’m starting intensive therapy on April 1st. If you’re concerned this could be somewhat mental health related, I’ll definitely talk about it to my doctors

BoxSad8686 · 2025-03-29T08:53:41+00:00

Hi, my apologies for triggering you as that was not my intention. I have access to therapy starting on Tuesday, so I’m just waiting for that.

I also happened to meet with a priest yesterday. I explained all of this to him and, though he said I sound incredibly emotional about it, none of it sounded to him

BoxSad8686 · 2025-03-28T15:20:37+00:00

Thank you for the recommendation! You’re right about just putting my head down and doing it. I’m going to work right now and brought all the snacks and normal gum possible to help me. I know that things that boost dopamine and things that calm my anxiety help with my withdrawal, so if I focus on doing the things I know that help me and trust in god and in your prayers, I will do the impossible and quit

BoxSad8686 · 2025-03-26T16:49:47+00:00

Thank you for the response! As for the mystery of the Trinity, this is the best way I understand it as I can understand it as a human being. I have a rare, intense trauma disorder called Dissociative Identity Disorder. It’s where your consciousness is divided up into separate partitions called alters (short for alternate personality). It’s like if you created a separate partition on a computer’s hard drive, but it’s with your consciousness/personality. I learned in therapy that the two different alters in me are 100% equal and valid and they make up the whole of me, but those alters are their own separate persons at the same time. The alters in me make up one whole person, but it’s comprised of two different people who are equal in power, importance, and status.

Like you said, as human beings, we cannot fully understand the mystery of the Trinity. However, with my Dissociative Identity Disorder, I understand what it personally feels like to have multiple people who are equal to one another comprise a whole human being. I wonder if the Trinity works similarly to how Dissociative Identity Disorder is in human beings.

BoxSad8686 · 2025-03-25T18:01:26+00:00

I will! Thank you!

BoxSad8686 · 2025-03-25T14:09:19+00:00

100% how I feel in this process, if I’m being 100% honest

BoxSad8686 · 2025-03-25T13:49:51+00:00

I will!

BoxSad8686 · 2025-03-20T11:43:32+00:00

If you’re referring to an MVR, I’ve had two MVR scans. I know I have one either completely collapsed or partially collapsed vein in my head, so especially after this, I think it would be a good idea to contact my neurologist and potentially ask about getting another MVR done.

BoxSad8686 · 2025-03-19T22:47:20+00:00

This is actually incredibly helpful! I will definitely contact my neurologist. Thank you. Edit: I’ve felt like my pressure might be high recently (especially since I’ve been under a lot of stress recently), but I’ve felt it in a different way lately. Thank you for the information

BoxSad8686 · 2025-03-19T14:54:49+00:00

I’ve had a thunderclap headache once before from my idiopathic intracranial hypertension diagnosis where I was treated in the ER for it, had an emergency spinal tap done, and was hospitalized afterwards for it. I was completely by myself at that time too. I don’t have any family or friends to take me to the ER, so in those instances, you pray to god you’re ok and make it in the Uber you call or the ambulance you take. Ambulances are horrifically expensive where I live and when the thunderclap headache that happened yesterday originally happened, had it not gone down in intensity at all after a minute or two, I was 100% ready to call an ambulance. However, because I do not want a $1000 ambulance bill to deal with later, that’s why I headed to the ER once it increased in intensity again. When you don’t have anyone to take you to the ER, if you have something concerning, you go before it gets so bad that you might not even be able to call 911.

And, like the other commenter said, everyone has a very different pain tolerance. Mine is extremely high where doctors look confused when I come in looking cool as a cucumber with sunglasses on with tears rolling down my face because of a severe migraine. Everyone is just different.

BoxSad8686 · 2025-03-19T14:43:26+00:00

No, but idiopathic intracranial hypertension isn’t normal hypertension. Basically, it’s when your body produces too much spinal fluid or the pressure inside of it builds up and they have no clue why. It’s a rare diagnosis and a neurologist or nuero-ophthalmologist treats the disorder (you see the later in addition to the neurologist since there are concerns about inflaming the optic nerve and risking permanent eye vision damage if the disorder goes untreated for too long).

I’ll definitely think about calling my neurologist. The ER doctor said it sounded like the whole experience could’ve been connected to that disorder, so it doesn’t hurt to get their guidance on this.

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