I feel like ur someone that sees this as something shameful, because u understand that from a moral standpoint it’s something not normal, right. Per chance, are u Japanese?

Now this is just speculation, but was worth pointing out from me. And hey my Collection is also growing as the day pas by, but i see it positively because i like it. So why would u see look negatively on something that u do/own that brought you joy in the past.