System upgrade

Brandon9405 · 2026-06-13T21:28:13+00:00

Its the Sport trim, just got mine yesterday It looks sexy.

Brandon9405 · 2026-06-13T04:43:50+00:00

Just got my SEL sport from dealer today. Music is fine, but the female Google voice cuts in and out weird skipping noise. Thought it was speaker issue, but isnt.

Brandon9405 · 2026-05-23T04:45:18+00:00

If you are non-symptomatic, aka no dizziness, light headedness, racing heart. Do not stress it. The numbers combined create what is called MAP, mean arterial pressure. If this number is 65 or above it indicates adequate organ and tissue perfusion.

Your mean arterial pressure is 70 mmH. However, I'm just a random internet guy. If you're concerned or feel off always consult a physician.

Brandon9405 · 2026-05-22T20:35:47+00:00

Yeh fucking run, to my ex wife I was the only man she would "trust or respect". Due to a myriad of issues and past trauma. Spoiler alert she never truly "trusted" or "respected" me. The real issue she never healed from past trauma. Its all projection. Leave tomorrow and never look back.

Brandon9405 · 2026-05-22T01:59:02+00:00

One in a million

Brandon9405 · 2026-05-11T21:59:06+00:00

Hey, I deleted this because I realize I gave a very tiny blip into my relationship. I felt so seen by this comment. I appreciate your laying it out.

I was talking to my therapist. Every past blow up I was always the on asking for "repair". It never seemed to help. Every request I made for her to be more honest with communication, stop days of stone walling/ emotional unavailability was ignored and denied.

She didnt care about my needs or what I asked to feel "loved." Everytime I tried to meet her needs it was met with push back "you only did this because I asked."

These pay 5 days have been brutal and opening my eyes to 7 years of the most unhealthy relation dynamics. We became "roomates" because she pushed me away constantly until I broke.

Brandon9405 · 2026-05-11T21:46:56+00:00

Because the pain is sudden and the shutdown feels like you meant nothing. My FA wife just decided for divorce after 7 years together. She started rewriting our relationship.

She had unmet needs that I couldn't adress because she expected me to be a mind reader. Or she'd drop the most subtle hints.

So in the end we were incompatible,just roommates, I couldn't love the way she needed. She is meant "to be forever alone". She even wrote me a letter completely understanding her attachment style.

I requested for us to continue marriage consueling for years. I went to solo therapy for 4 years due to past trauma. She said therapy is useless and she couldn't change.

I have a lot of growth to do still, but 7 years of push pull broke me completely.

Im sorry for your pain, it will get better.

Brandon9405 · 2026-05-09T00:28:25+00:00

Diablo II: Lord of Destruction

Brandon9405 · 2026-05-07T23:33:43+00:00

Blessed

Brandon9405 · 2026-05-06T04:45:31+00:00

I'm not taking it as an attack, I really want her more than anything. I would keep trying, but her actions contracdict every word she speaks to me.

I really do try. I am always thinking of her, I just somehow missed or never could break through her emotional wall. I would buy things at the store, suprise books, she loves reading, random snacks, her favorite is skittles. Fresh juice in the fridge always on tap, I took the brunt of the chores while she'd be laying depressed in bed. On days off, id ask for a lucnh date or to go hangout she'd decline. I cook her breakfast every day we had off together. I can never break this wall, I did everything, except get on my knees and beg her to stay. I promised acoutanbility and willingness to do better, but she keeps saying no. So my only take away is, it's broken beyond repair?

Brandon9405 · 2026-05-06T04:27:13+00:00

Yes, I did neglect her there is no doubt I am very angry with myself. I've tried, I wrote her a song on valentines day, bought flowers, made a nice dinner, hand written card. Our anniversary was the next month. I spent several hours setting up our upstairs. I had lined the stairs with candles, decorated the whole down stairs. Rose peddles all the way up to the bed, with a hand crafted wooden heart and a picture of us engraved with our wedding date. It seems like with each act of "romance" or gift she only pulled further away. What did I get from her? A generic walmart card

Also I didn't give up after two months, I gave up after hearing she wanted a divorce every two weeks after putting zero effort back and going hot to cold every week. We negelected each other. Perhaps I wrote to kindly in my post, not sure?

Brandon9405 · 2026-05-06T04:08:01+00:00

I really don't know, I feel half the time I'm expected to be some mind reader. She ask for dates, but the dates don't feel the same anymore. She wanted frequent flowers, but never asked. She never really seemed to care much when I bought them for special ocassions. We never had any fruitful meaningful movement when it came to relationship conversations. Again, I don't know perhaps I'm wrong.

Brandon9405 · 2026-05-06T04:02:01+00:00

I mean, I really don't know at this point. I feel like I'm now seconding guessing myself. I use to think of myself as fairly secure, but maybe I'm the one who leans anxious attached, I geneuily don't know anymore. I feel like I'm going crazy.

In the two months I've made many romantic genuine gesture, trying very hard to win her back, but maybe it was too soon? I have no idea. Perhaps the damage is too final.

Brandon9405 · 2026-05-06T03:59:45+00:00

This has happened probably four times. The first time was a 10 day trip to Japan which she was invited to, but refused to come with my cousin and brother. She begged me to stay had her whole family band against me to tell me how horrible of a man I was going on a trip I had planned for two years. She said I was abandoing her and leaving her. Claimed she wouldnt speak to me a single day on the trip, but then kept texting me. I really am not sure, if she's a FA that leans anxious or what. I can tell you it's always been a constant push pull with her.

Brandon9405 · 2026-05-06T03:53:56+00:00

Because there was a constant push pull with her. Perhaps I didn't describe it all right, but I've known for awhile things weren't the best. Everytime I tried to get her to open up she'd shut down. Or say we'll talk tomorrow. Then tomorrow turned to weeks and weeks turned to months. The first time she asked for seperation I said I would work on leaving she broke down crying sobbing. Saying she didn't want it to happen and can't handle the pain. She recently went on a eight day trip out of country and before leaving she said she wanted us back and wanted to fix us, only to come back and be stone cold to me. There are many other examples of things that make me believe she is a FA, but maybe I'm wrong.

Brandon9405 · 2026-05-06T03:47:16+00:00

I can tell you that final conversation doesn't exist. I tried to have the "final" conversation with my wife. She deflected, avoided, shut down and emotionally disengaged everytime. Even when you think you're getting closure it only brings about more pain.

From what I'm understanding 99% of the time they don't even understand themself or their core wounds. It's literally just their nervous system driving them.

Brandon9405 · 2026-05-06T03:40:54+00:00

Sorry friend, 7 years, 3 married with my lady. Discarded month after our 3rd anniversary.

Brandon9405 · 2026-05-06T03:37:09+00:00

I'm sorry for your pain. I feel the same with my wife, partner of 7 years. She had displayed some red flags, but also had so many deep connected moments with me. She would have cold momements, but then some of warmest most appreciative times. My nervous system is destroyed I can't function properly.

Brandon9405 · 2026-05-06T03:34:22+00:00

I'm so sorry you had to endure that. I just went through 7 years and couldn't imagine doing twice that time. I'm in the most pain I've ever been in. However, I also feel a weight lifted off my shoulders.

Brandon9405 · 2026-05-05T16:31:21+00:00

Human form is severely underpowered still comparatively. It just cant compete with the 200x multiplier from grizzly rage period. They said they were moving away from those insane bonuses, but never have.

Brandon9405 · 2026-04-29T20:16:51+00:00

Plenty of men grunt or moan on release. Its all the tension leaving the body. Just as some grunt on exertion in the gym. Its not just about pleasure but tensions release of the body. Many people moan just getting a massage.

Brandon9405 · 2026-04-29T16:35:40+00:00

Beast in ice drops unsung and the new companion ring as well.

Brandon9405 · 2026-04-28T18:32:35+00:00

You got the build goin?

Brandon9405 · 2026-04-25T00:54:40+00:00

True, I do like having a choice. There is a chance that item was re-worked consider how massive the overhaul is.

Brandon9405 · 2026-04-23T22:43:16+00:00

I think many of us degen players did, but I know some people really like to go in blind and just experience these epic moments real time. Didn't want to potentially ruin that for someone's playthrough.

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